Melancholy

Four-hundred-first Post

2012-02-11T20:38:00.002+08:00

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i'm verie attracted to nice people......
verie verie ><

i'm feeling tired now...... and sad, too.

alas, he was just kidding x)
i talk about a guy in every post...... hah
sad samuel >< poor samuel......

recentlie, i've found a way to make myself sleep well...... i could tell you guys if you want to know ^^

goodnight, i'll sleep for a while and wake up and bathe and yada...... goodnight

sad samuel :'(

Samuel

Four-hundredth Post

2012-02-10T23:38:00.005+08:00

I was at Compass Point shopping mall just now, and there was this little chap (whose voice has yet to break) beside me on the escalator going upwards.

"I not purposely pangseh you one......" he said to someone in a pleaful tone over his iPhone......

It just struck a chord with me... Could it have been me? The younger version of me, just that I would have had an earlier "exposure" to...... the Alien Jacks, to put it this way (once and never again).

I had a little urge to ask who that was over the phone! But I couldn't — he was a stranger. Geez, why are there so many sad people in this world? If only we could connect...... Alfred, if only, huh? x)

So, while I have felt a little rustled inside, I eventually decided to head elsewhere to have dinner with Ped. That poor chap has had a mishap...... Ped, I mean.

We agreed on going to Bishan to have Manhattan Fish Market! It has been a long time since we've had a meal there again. There was a long queue when we arrived, so we just queued up too. After maybe 20 minutes, we were seated ^^

A waiter (though I believe he was the manager — he appeared rather old. A man in his forties, perhaps?) came to take our orders. He was pretty nice and explained the difference between two dishes...... and cleared my doubts! I wish the service sector had more people like him. Gladly, he said...... Gladly explained ^^

Our food arrived after a long time of waiting. Before that, we chatted about...... many things. Ped said that I was irritating the guy I was whatsapp-ing with, judging from his "-.-" emoticon...... I suppose I was <.<

The food was SCRUMPTIOUS! I liked it a lot! Ped said he had not much appetite and was full after finishing 5/8 of his food...... so I helped him finish the remainder.
It's really awkward blogging like this. I feel a little unexpressive.
We took bus service 88 home ^^

And now I'm home. Okay.

Shouldn't blogging be a little more expressive than this? Maybe I need more practice.

Ped, please stop cursing and swearing <.< it isn't a good habit. Lawrence...... please talk to me. Little chap, God bless you x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-ninth Post

2012-02-09T17:10:00.004+08:00

HELLO!

I've just finished reading a book... like a WHOLE non-fiction book on punctuation....... -proud-

Collins Improve Your Punctuation

I've learnt many new things...... some of my beliefs have been reinforced, some have been changed...... it has been hard to swallow LOL. that's not to say, though, that i am now a punctuation prodigy or even a polished punctuator...... it's just tough. I hope, though, that I will continue to learn as I live life and that I will remember the lessons ^_^

actuallie i wouldn't reallie wanna return the book <.< i would still like to refer to it every now and then to remember it better...... OMG

But I have to return the book today because it's due today :D WHATEVER LAH. SHUDDAP ABOUT IT.

Okay. Perhaps I should start typing in proper punctuation o_O perhaps! Okay, me next post will be in proper punctuation :B

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-eighth Post

2012-02-06T00:34:00.003+08:00

hello~ ;D

i'm happy for a few reasons......

1. i was skyping with mah godsistar in germanie...... HEHE HALLO! :D
es machte Spaß! wir sollen wieder skypen :P

2. i had a GREAT dinner with mah sherlyn meimei...... omg nihon mura < DD how thou misses thee... LOL!

we ordered many plates of sashimi... ika sashimi, salmon sashimi, hotate sashimi, naba ebi sashimi...... sadlie, there wasn't amaebi sashimi ): the raw-er prawns...... that were sweet o_o

we also had half a bowl of ramen each! omg. the noodles...... OISHII YO!

we also had a bunch of other delicacies :P and there was a handsome waiter...... AGAIN. LOL. but alas, couldn't get his facebook...... LMAO. it's okay~
smile smile~ =) ;D LOL.

3. mah moshh happeh reason ish that lawrence korkor chatted with me! ;D
he got me smiling like a freak...... omg. it's always nice talking to him...... today, i asked him about himself...... i hope that i made him smile O:
also whatsapp him a little ^_^ me ish happie to see his LOLs......

i'm even HAPPIER to see his new facebook profile picture...... omg.

his smile...... his smiles, i mean... they charm. hehe...... wouldn't it be great if they existed because of me? sexuallie magnetic LOL.

hur...... i don't think i can stop him from doing what he wants...... i wish though that he won't <.<

all the best, korkor ^^ GANBATTE!~!~

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-seventh Post

2012-02-05T00:11:00.005+08:00

hello~

i changed mah blogskin ^_^ as you can see......

actuallie, the KAWAII picture that you see above doesn't belong to this blogskin O: this blogskin actuallie had another picture... and that picture belonged to another blogskin... so with the help of Jasmine, i managed to customise my blog even further :3 so, thank you verie muchie, jazzeh :3!!!

and i just furbished this blog...... this AP blogskinner...... :x
i'm gonna need more time to fully renovate it, though ^^

~.~ i bet i will be ignored again............ this just sucks. LOL someone just shoot me...... i'm so confused as to whether i should ...... or ......
grrrrr.................. ):

LOL. confused >_< though i reallie hate how he treats me, i just can't hate him...... :\
"there you are~"............ hais
me ish sucha ful.

this blog is best viewed in IE, btw ^_^ mah favourite browser...... which unfortunatelie is not one of the browsers present in my macbook PRO......
sooooo, you luckie guys should be able to see some yellowish background O: while the rest of us will see white :3 which isn't so bad!

people like him just remind me of the importance of being attractive...... perhaps being mature or looking splendid. it's kinda scarie how people can actuallie be that mean and cold-blooded...... many people whom i have encountered. i, myself, am guiltie of that...... and for my heinous crime, i ask for your forgiveness...... little froggie :\

steven once admitted to me that whenever we got into arguments...... the person he wanted to talk to the most was actuallie me. isn't he just beautiful?...... steven is a magnificent person, and i was a stupid fool...... hah. i've learnt much from interacting with steven...... and right now, i apply what i've taken to heart.

lawrence korkorrrrrr, will you pleaseeeeee talkkkkkkkk toooooooo meeeee? i wanna talk to you @@ i'm sorry for disappointing you and all...... making you mad, disturbing you. but whatever i did, i just wanted to get your active attention...... like a little brother wanting his elder brother's attention... :\

please, i beseech you, ignore whatever i've said in my previous posts. i'm sorry for the umpteenth time. i'd reallie like your attention......
so, will you put a pair on my head?
Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-sixth Post

2012-02-03T10:23:00.006+08:00

hello~

i woke up at dunnoewhat time O: maybe 8+ ? and i couldn't get back to sleep ):

i had been thinking and thinking...... not to say overthinking and that it would destroy me
but i had been thinking...... just conflicting inside my head...... thinking of reasons why i should hold on, why i should just give up.

well...... i think it's clear. it's visible. from the latest treatment...... comparing it with the scenario in which he'd have answered me in another way...... like "talk to you later, okay? =)"
instead, i got "wtf." simplie because I'd never do that.

i woke up today with nice hair :3 which i am going to wear to meet mah church friends...... haven't seen them for a month ): because i had been unavailable...... chinese new year and my cousin's wedding and all... would be great to see them again ^^ i think that my hair will not so sho kickash, though :3

oh, and remember in my previous blog post (if any of you ghosts still read my blog) i said that i give 40% each to my parents? SCRAP THAT :P imma give 20%...... that was what i gave my mom anyway O: 8 dollars......
that leaves me with 50% of my salary to myself ^^
and i still have debts to pay............ O: i need more customers! LOL.

i think i've tried enough. for a whole week, i've tried. tried to please you, not to offend you, to talk to you...... i'm just condescending.

By the definition in dictionary.com,

to put aside one's dignity or superiority voluntarily and assume equality with one regarded as inferior

i chose to see all that's good......

obviouslie unappreciated. i need someone who appreciates me, that is but the most attractive qualitie that i look for in a person. appreciative.

speaking of being appreciative, i like how your voice sounds ^^ and that i should stand at your right side...... they are all part of your attractive qualitie ^^

but whose heart is ugleh now? we're all becoming what we thought we'd never become ^^ that is but a desperate doing in life......

it's just clear to me...... i don't want to consider anymore <.<

my doors are always open, though ^^ you may walk in, if you aren't so crippled. it's your fing turn to put in effort.

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-fifth Post

2012-02-03T00:34:00.004+08:00

i came out of the shower, wrapped in merely a yellow towel

i went into my room, closed the door and dropped the towel, went over to my computer...... and... he was offline

and i was disappointed :\ haven't i always been?

so i just put on some clothes and went to the kitchen... applied my cream for those little bacterial busterds

as i was putting on cream, i was thinking...... perhaps a blog entry about you? the one who has disappointed me so much...... LOL i'm sorrie that all my blog entries about you are that gloomy :P make me happy lah......
I came back to my macbook and saw a notice on skype...
it turned out that he actuallie disconnected ^^ and he didn't intentionallie leave me ;D

yet... just another one-word reply...... just what am i to do ;(

and right now, he's replying ^^ saying that i am verie free......
i wouldn't be if i had more tutees!
playing Hey, Soul Sister in another tab ^^

and now i'm listening to If I Die Young by The Band Perry......

trying to blog with genuine feelings...... and the song has ended

oh, and my cousin recentlie posted on my facebook wall, saying that my little cousin likes Hey, Soul Sister very much!!! xD
and during chinese new year, another cousin said that because i sang that song during our karaoke session, she downloaded the song! HAHA.
well...... thanks for your support :3 though i sing flatly...... i must reallie improve <.<

lawrence korkor, would you like to hear me sing?

playing Misery by Maroon 5 at the moment...

playing Party in the USA at the moment <.<

lawrence korkor ain't talking to me! -kicks-
sorry korkorrr -kneels down-

sad samuel......

i was thinking in the bath...... by the words of david archuleta :3
Do you ever think when you're all alone, all that we could be, where this thing could go?
only the underlined parts...... LOL :s
and as you could infer, i'm playing Crush now...

AND I AM PLAYING A Little Too Not Over You now...... MY GOODNESS. is it because i am bored, because he isn't replying or would I still have played songs regardless of whether he replied or not? i guess i like music......

why is david archuleta so cute and talented and young? ): LOL me wanna be his didi :3

hais~

okay lah. i should stop here. my eyes hurt a little......
but before that, imma play my favourite song, the song steven and i liked ^^ i hope you are doing well, steven...... i reallie do. i hope, too, that i could see you again...... whether online or in real life...... i miss you x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-fourth Post

2012-02-02T00:15:00.010+08:00

hello, guys~

yesterday (1st Feb), i went out with sendeh shuai ge :3
LOL.

so, we went to the starhub outlet at plaza singapura at B1...... LOL. while i played jetpack joyride......

we then went to POMO O.O to pass his mom some starhub stuff...... then he had nothing to carry along while we enjoy our time together :3

after that, we went to the kopitiam to have our luncheh O: i had indonesian BBQ chicken ^^ ayam panggang :D while he had...... some beef noodles O.O

then i brought him to the highest level to ask him about some anime things...... the one which L korkor watches. we looked at some weapon replicas at other shops...... LOL. he also commented that there are many ugleh people in the album in otaku house LOL. lalala~

we also went to yamaha O.O he played a little...... while i damn paiseh lah. Never mind, I'll find someone like you~~~~ LOL. can't play it yet, haven't touched my keyboard for a few weeks ._.
that paiseh feeling, you know? like...... damn sad ):
he also showed me an Ultra-Contemporary Keyboard o_o that has autoplay...... which means the keys go down as if they were pressed when they play a song...... cool! 16 thousand dollars LOL.

we then went to orchard central ^^v mah favourite place :3 LOL. i should stop going so frequentlie......
he had cotton candeh while i had popcorn ^^ LOL. and i saw the guy who works at nautica :D but i thought i shouldn't go say hi...... i'll be seen as a stalker liao, lidat ):

we went to the roof garden...... okay lah, he wasn't verie interested, so we went down LOL and had more cotton candeh :3

prollie at 5/6+, he decided he wanted to go for some job search in clarke quay... so we walked back to dhoby ghaut and took a train to clarke quay station.

we sat down on those stone steps that go down into the singapore river...... we sat for a while to blow wind :3 and talk about random things. then we got up and walked around the clarke quay mall area o_O we even saw the turkish ice-cream stand...... LOL. that man :3

in the end, also never interview...... or whatever. so in the end, we left for the mrt station coz he needed to go somewhere O: that's when sarah whatsapp-ed me to ask me some chemistrie questions :3

i alighted at dhoby ghaut station and bade farewell to sendeh :3 thanks for coming out :3 so i exited and walked to orchard central again...... omg. LOLOLOL. because joshie said he was at centrepoint...... which is good because i have companie :3

so i was sitting down on the 4th level...... when SOMETHING CAUGHT MY EYE.

and it was floating as if it had neutral buoyancy... LOL. it was floating freelie :3 and i wanted to grab it!

but it's floating high in the air beyond reach @@

it floated from the fourth level down to the 2nd and then up again...... so i rushed to take the elevator like... down, up, down, up...... -_- LOL.

THEN, i saw that it was sinking...... and not going up anymore! so i quicklie rushed down again...... and...... looks like the floating patrick has attracted the attention of mr nautica and another staff there :3

ALAS, i caught patrick xDD and the other staff smiled at me...... and mr nautica looked at me, too. i smiled back LOL :3 i bet he must be scared of me now...... but it's nice seeing him :B

patrick with nowhere to go! >:D

caught ^^v

so i waited for time to pass...... so that joshie and his friend will be done with their appointments...... and in time, i was asked to meet him at 313 entrance :3
i handed him his gift lor ^^ a paper heart...... better folded this time o_O

he then brought me to the basement and got some food for me...... isn't he kind :D!!!
i had tako balls....... yummeh ^^ as well as some sushi and...... riverside indonesian BBQ chicken... which, according to him, is the same as that i ate earlier...... OMG ):
but the tako balls and sushi were nice :3
i also showed him L korkor's photos and asked if he knew him...... he said he looked familiar O: he asked if i'm dating someone...... that is most impossible LOL. heh ^^

soon, his friend and another guy came ^^ so they chatted for a while...... while i heard them talk and bore a nascent toothache...... :'(

soon, they all had to go home...... i said i wanted to take a train from dhoby ghaut (for adult fare concerns...) so they led me out of somerset station...... through the wrong exit LOL. so after they've left, i went back down into the station and went up by the other exit ^^ and walked towards dhoby ghaut station...... by then, nautica had alreadie closed for the day O: which was fine ^^ it was alreadie 10++ o_o

so i held mah newfound friend whose name is patrick and we went to take a train at dhoby ghaut station......

my father iMessaged me...... my sister ~.~ giving him a headache. it just sickens me to see helplessness and patheticness, for lack of a better word. but i wish that God will make me more understanding...... may I not disregard such emotions and learn to have compassion......

i took bus no. 325 to the place behind my house ^^ walked home......

so now here i am, all cleaned and in pain...... ass toothache.
wonder if L korkor is doing okay without me...... most probablie. heh. thanks for your 细心-ness in finding out about me, anyway. I appreciate it ^^

toodles, guys~

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-third Post

2012-01-31T11:17:00.014+08:00

hello~

We're coming to the end of the first month of the year ): hasn't it been great? x)

Woah...... one whole month since I tuned in to the 987 TOP 100 LOL.

Right now, feeding my mind with music......

ON SUNDAY (29th Jan), I had my first tuition session! :B

MAH FIRST JOB LIKE INDEPENDENTLY IN MY WHOLE LIFEEEEEEEEE. :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

FINALLY I CAN GIVE MY LONG-OVERDUE TITHE D: like six dollars...... after being a lovelie assistant to my beloved extuition teacheress :B plus the four dollars this time!

After tuition, I went to my classmate's house...... it's my third time there liao o_o LOL. I reallie like her place :3

It was a class gathering...... from approximately 7 pm O:
She has a KAWAII DOGGIE :B which i affectionately stroked and she licked my hand
while i was waiting and waiting and waiting for someone's messages...... boohoo

anyway, me stayed over :3 the girls who stayed over and i watched a movie called One Day...... and when most of us haven't left yet hours before, we watched No Strings Attached o_o SEX SEX SEX D: LOL.

One Day...... okay lah. good acting, i suppose o_O

I chose to sleep on their sofa :B it's prettie nice and comfortable, i had a fluffy sheep pillow...... and GIGANTIC PILLOWS and MULTIPLE STIFF BOLSTERS :D
I built myself a hut of sorts...... LOL.
anyway, i slept comfortablie and well ^^

when i awoke like 7 hours later, i kept on visiting the toilet to blow mah nose and cough out phlegm...... :@

when everyone awoke like an hour later, we headed to bukit timah plaza for brunch :B at subway...... and there went 75% of 10% of my salary T.T

did you know? I give 10% of my salary to the church as my tithe, 40% to each of my parents and the remaining 10% for myself...... aren't i a nice chap? ^^

anyway, we all boarded 171 and two of us alighted opposite of our former school ^^ while i continued my ride with mah other friend ^^

we chatted a bit while i was quiet for most of the journey. LOL

we eventually alighted at The Heeren...... and we bade farewell :3
and ash you would no, itch at somerset, mah favourite place :3 and since i didn't have any concrete plans made, i headed to orchard central! again D: LOL

mah first stop: COTTON CANDEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I'm a little sick of it liao LOL.
didn't taste reallie good this time :\ fatigue of food!

anyway, i was walking around and someone caught my eye O: some chap working at Nautica, some apparels shop...... ya know, like QUIKSILVER that sort of shop?
in fact, that chap has caught my eye multiple times, even last year as i was out with ped LOL.
sho after looking at things on the first level in orchard central (like entering QUIKSILVER... whose boardshorts they sell look very good o_O), i stepped into Nautica :3

and of course, shuai ge had to greet me :3 LOL. "HELLO WELCOME!"
:DDDDDDDDD LOL.

so handsome x) smooth face, dyed hair. a little tall LOL. STEVEN
well...... he was nice towards me ^^ even asked if i'd like to try on some bermudas o_o LOL. me touched :3
will you do things that touch me, too?
i tried them on...... and. i thought it was okay-okay. reallie costlie >:O and...... okay, not that good LOL.
but the boardshorts they sell look reallie nice O: me might wanna get them from this shop one day ^^ sho me can go WILD WILD WET in them :3

i wanted to make friends with him because he's so nice O: i asked him if i could and he said okay...... and gave me his facebook O: SHO NICE HOR :3 LOL. if i were him, i'd probablie feel like shit. well, i asked in my shy demeanor and so did i in genting at bumcity :3

i asked him a few questions...... like how long he's worked, if the pay is good, how old he is, how he got the job...... and he did ask if i wanted to work here ^^
beside him? LOL. perhaps not, i'm not verie suited to be a salesman......
he also said he IS a model :D LOL. from malaysia...... should i be posting all these? LOL. okay, i will stop.

and i guess i'm a pest :3 who wouldn't find someone like me a pest :\

NEEWAY, i tried on a pullover...... while i thought made me look fat o_O LOL.
and got SHAPE if you 挺胸 D:

here's how i look:

with my trademark 爆炸 hair :B
LOL i look like a deak

i headed to the coffee bean o_O i didn't know it existed! LOL.
it's like at a CORNER of orchard central...... so i sat down and used mah phone. and i received a phone call O.O another potential customer! this time, it's A level Chemistry... my expertise (?) :B

and i was a little tired z_z was falling asleep waiting for replies in vain, of course
and so i was a little tired in my eyes... and i decided to read the newspaper i got free outside the mrt station o_o myPAPER. 我报

hmm...... from the newspaper, i learnt a few new words. might be hard to remember...
贿赂. and others.

then i was reallie bored, so i folded my postcard thing... ya know those ZoCards?
freaking hard material LOL and since it was pinkish with roses and it's about valentine's day, i decided to fold a heart :B
it was heart work ~.~ HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
my fingers were in pain trying to fold LOL. eventuallie, i succeeded ^^ so i went back to a postbox to get two more free cards...... and i folded another one ^^

then a BRILLIANT idea came across my mind! LOL. and this was what i did:
do not hesitate to click on the pictures, by the way, to enlarge it

MASTERPIECE, ain't it? :3

I have a knack for romantic photographie...... just kidding :P

neeway, i stoned there at my table and looked at the water feature...... LOL. little geysers. and i saw some guy in pants with some spandex composition...... OMG. GROSS D:

after perhaps an hour at the coffee bean, i headed to the roof ^^ alone...... at like 5 pm or so o_O

windie :3 and bright...... listening to Hi-5 songs x)
is it fun, you ask? but of course ^^ even though i was alone......
i looked at the construction going on at the back of orchard central... idiot lah, they shouldn't be doing that. it just blocks the view...... hais.
and i saw that the man operating the crane up in the air, he was wearing a cloth...... you know how indians wear a large cloth around their waist like bottom wear? heh, i don't think that's work clothing...... horhor.

after spending an hour or so at the rooftop garden, i went back down to nautica :3 to look for mr malaysia. i asked where he disappeared to just now O: then he said he went to answer the call of his girlfriend...... well, NO TURNING BACK NOW :3
i asked if he could accept a gift from me ^^ so i asked him to choose a paper heart which i folded...... and i told him not to throw away. LOL. MY GOODINESS, he might throw it away...... but it's okay, the symbolism is what's important ^^ the symbolism of ACCEPTING A GIFT, not the symbolism of what i folded......

i then walked towards plaza singapura and at the cross junction, a rare sight occured O.O there were traffic police...... like stopping the traffic o_O and only the rightmost lane of the main road could move. there were LOTS of traffic policemen on their mopeds...... what's going on? i thought got like terrorist or something LOL.

and then, a bunch of white/black cars zoomed past...... they were driving relativelie quicklie o_O and when i looked, they turned into the istana at a fast speed...... one car after another just trailing behind by one or two metres. i suppose they're diplomats or something. it's a little exaggerated in my opinion, the escort and all. the disruption of traffic...... but it was a prettie cool sight ^^

and when it all ended, the traffic police vanished like thin air LOL. wow!!!!!!

i took the train from dhoby ghaut station to promenade station :3 to meet up with mom for dinner... AT PUTIEN HAHAHA :3

i miss the cockles @@ they're called drunken cockles... basicallie, they're cockles with a LOT of garlic added into the shells with some light sauce...... every mouth will guarantee a weird sensation in your stomach. LOL. delicious!

i also had fried eggplants...... gross. we also drank two teapots of 普洱茶
<:

we then headed home lor ^^ alighted at serangoon mrt station and took 101 home...... talked talked talked to mom. rare sight LOL.

i took out my contact lenses and washed up and all~
so many animals inside of me, so many animals – SET THEM FREE
and i used mah computer lor...... checked out my new pictures and all ^^
to run through the jungle, fly through the air, swim in the ocean, GO ANYWHERE :D
wanted to chat with L korkor but...... he doesn't seem as interested as when we first chatted. he poofed all of a sudden, too, with the last word being...... but it's all fine, i don't mind. maybe he has other people...... wonder if i should say it, but heck. the other paper heart is for you, if you're reading ^^

alright, signing off :B (1312 hours)

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninety-second Post

2012-01-29T01:08:00.007+08:00

hello~

i feel very defeated/destroyed......

i've done it again. another fiasco, as Steven would aptly put it...... it's sad how my genuine, sad side doesn't get the consolation it yearns............

speaking of steven, i saw a child with brownish hair at plaza singapura earlier...... woah. steven x)

do i feel hungrie now? <.< my stomach muscle hurts a little.

yesterday (28th Jan), my maternal relatives came over to my house ^^
i CANNOT BELIEVE how B-E-A-UTIFUL a cousin of mine has become...... OMG. BEAUTIFUL!
nice to see my relatives ^^ the laughter and familiarity...... and i couldn't joke because my father was dominating the mood with his jokes and puns. GRR. besides, my chinese ain't pro yet...

and of course i couldn't wait for something since the moment i woke up at 7 and couldn't reenter dreamworld. it just cuts me to type this now

ya know? ............................................................................

.....................................................................................

his elusive smile. i must have failed badlie ~.~
i always fail...... but my parents always laugh at mah antics and nonsense...... i do have some worth, huh? ^^

hais...... i failed to entertain him. my goodness, he just walked out of a shop i went into ;___;
a clear indication of how boring i am.

he didn't let me use my starbucks card to get a drink, too ;___;

poor samuel...... but it's okay ;D i always tell myself that...... i told myself that like at least twenty times in the past six hours. how noob can you get?

he didn't even touch my head )'; like a korkor would to a didi!

haisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. pathetic......

nevertheless, i'd love to see him again. of course, if he pushed all the right buttons...... like at least caress my head
i'd reallie hais
just freaking noob.
melt
thanks, though, for the coffee ^_^ it was reallie high-class...... the last guy who touched me greatlie just got me a 1-dollar ice-cream...... which was well good enough x)
just fucking shock my heart, you......

Samuel but i still want to see you again.

i just appended this music video because i was listening to it :P

Three-hundred-ninety-first Post

2012-01-21T05:21:00.010+08:00

hey guys~

recentlie, i went out with a SHUAI GE, T. in fact, just yesterday ^_^

so, i woke up at 9.30, around that time. i went to look into the mirror and my heart stopped. LOL kidding :P

then i had a bad stomach :@ :@

thennnnn, i dressed up and lay on the bed to whip ma hair :B LOL

soon, i left home wearing the Best. Shirt. Ever. which seemed a little dirtie o_O LOL

waited for the blardie 101 ;eeks LOL. if not for my hair, i'd have walked to the station. and i would perspiring also... so never mind LOL

so, i boarded the train from hougang mrt station to dhoby ghaut and switched lines to get to somerset :D

when i exited through the barricade, i went to the toylet because i wanted to check on MA HAIR and i believe T also exited because passengers were alighting at both platforms o_O
sucking on strepsils pain relief MAX <.<
after a little game of hide-and-seek, i finallie found him :D

acne is a real beach somewhere in the world...... but it's okay, it's okay~ ;D

it was raining, but we proceeded to orchard central ^_^

soooooo...... the first stop wasn't the toylet, but rather some Black Market. LOL
T seems to like browsing through clothes o_O hmm...... it's some clothes shop, by the way

we then headed to molecule which was some giga-modern furniture shop o_O LOL. expenshiff shtuff >:

slowlie, we headed up and up and up...... from the 2nd floor to the 10th floor ^_^
but T didn't want to go to the roof because it was drizzling-aling D: which was fine with me as always ^_^

we then took the elevator down to the first floor and guess what we found.................................... FREE COTTON CANDEHHHHHHHH :DDDDDDDDD
LOL! the "free treats by OC" corner was manned by a few old people o_o like an uncle and two aunties... one of whom was a little grandma-ish :s
the uncle even joked to me when i asked 是免费的吗？他说，算你是免费，算别人就要收钱⋯⋯ LOL
apparently, i got T feeling like a child again...... LOLOLOL. aren't i powerful? :B

i went to the basement...... dirty-stained couches LOL. white stains O_O
basement two... yuan lai the restaurant is called MEDZS or something O.O maybe we should eat there someday?

we went to Centrepoint which is the mall opposite of orchard central... to have McDonald's :B
i ordered beef prosperity burger meal... so McDonald's is gonna donate 50 cents to MiNDS, ^^
the burger was nice :B nice! < DD

after our meal, we went up to street level and walked towards ION shopping mall...... and HALF-WAY, we decided to go into Abercrombie & Fitch, the gay apparels store :B
(i only say GHEY because there's a parody on it by MadTV :@)
so i hurriedlie finished my sprite and we entered...... and there was a topless, muscular guy o_O GROSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
but the place was rather nice :B a little clubbish...... O.O
the clothes looked comfie :B but they cost a bomb :@
so after spending maybe 10 minutes there, we proceeded...... and i saw sherman who didn't see me LOL

we soon reached ION and because it's sucha noisie and crappie place, we went looking for a place to sit down to play osu!, some beats tapping game o_O
but not yet, we sat on some longish bench and we started chatting...... >:
speaking of which, T is a rather open and frank guy.

T told me many things i didn't know. i didn't know ION had a residential area -___- rich people.
T was also verie kind, he asked if I liked chocolates. LOL
and he bought some chocolates for me :3 Royce white chocolate? KEN YOU BELIEVE IT?
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD act of kindness should be recognised and applauded *clap*

i begged him not to go off (as i would to anyone) and in the end i followed him to yishun ^_^ could have met pim hor? LOL

went to his friend's home, he needed to collect something o_O
the auntie...... her thinking was rather interesting. she seems conscious of -coughcough- and is rather embracing towards it? hmm...... but she not verie kind to their pet dog lah >: which was reallie cute :3 it kept on punching me with her paw, wanting me to pat and rub her...... like rub her belly.
T is reallie handsome. reallie......
so...... listening to them speak. it was a reallie nice experience ^_^ i might even come again next saturday for chainese new year ^_^

then we went back to the mrt station and we boarded the train o_o he was off to collect another thing. sucha busie guy LOL

we alighted at woodlands station...... went to the nice-looking toilet which STANK OF DISCUSTING :@ :@ :@ at causeway point

we headed to Woodlands Civic Centre de starbucks...... he got a drink (using my starbucks card hehe) and we started talking...
i asked him a lot of questions like "When was the last time you cried", "When was the second last time you cried" and "When was the third last time you cried". so interesting hor?
i also asked a lot of similar questions LOL.

eventuallie, i started sharing about my experiences...... like about some AR$C|-||_0Ch living in sengkang.

i eventuallie talked about steven. of course, i didn't mention his pristine name, i just used the third-person to refer to him......
you know? there was a genuine welling-up when i talked about our final days, like separation and reallie the regrets of my own handling of the relationship. to even speak about the impossibility of his return and his unwillingness to ever communicate with me again...... it just cuts me. of course, all of these are my fault ^^ he never did anything wrong......

i was getting reallie tired :\ and so we went to the bus interchange and waited for 161. it eventually came and i thanked him for coming out and being my friend @@ isn't he kind? xD

the ride back...... i fell asleep LOL. came home speaking like a duck ):
and went to bed...... tired and sad

i woke up 4 hours later, at 4 o_o and it's 6.23 am now

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm........................................

i hope to go out with shuai ge T again ^_^ it's always nice to go out with nice people...... unlike some idiots i met up with LOL

i will probably blog about my clubbing experience last saturday and perhaps my cousin's wedding later today, but we'll see ^^

Samuel
and i wish my blog skin wasn't screwed up in so many browsers.

Three-hundred-ninetieth Post: 내 생일 !!

2012-01-04T00:13:00.004+08:00

Hello~

it's my birthday :B HAHAHAHA.

i'm 19 le...... the unofficial unsekseh age ;___;

NEEWAY, i... am gonna add on to my resolutions list :B

a) GET OFF THE SEAT AFTER 40 MINUTES OF COMPUTER USAGE and move about for a while and rest mah eyes < D

b) thorough BODY SCRUB every 10 days :P instead of every 15 days last year... which is GOOD IMPROVEMENT :B

c) be polite to my parents NO MATTER WHAT. i should be more tolerant and keep any fire to myself, i cannot hurt them :s

d) spend 10 minutes a day looking at hamsters......

e) do my physiotherapy exercises daily until i no need do <.< LOL.

that's all, folks :P ciao~

Samuel

Three-hundred-eighty-ninth Post: Happie New Year 2012 :DDDDD!

2012-01-01T00:01:00.008+08:00

HAPPIE NEW YEARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!! :DDDDDD

Happie 2012 to everyone!!!!!

And congratulations to LMFAO for having the Number One song in Singapore in 2011, PARTY ROCK ANTHEM!!!!!! :D

kudos too to the other top 10 tracks :P

2. Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5 (ft. Christina Aguilera)
3. Rolling in the Deep by Adele
4. Last Friday Night (T.G.I.F) by Katy Perry
5. Give Me Everything
6. Yoü and I by Lady Gaga :DDDD
7. Grenade by Bruno Mars
8. Someone Like You by Adele
9. The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars
10. Price Tag by Jessie J ft. B.O.B. :D

ALMOST 11 HOURS (+) OF NONSTOP 987fm < DD my love :D
and through the radio show, I've learnt the names of some songs...... like Set Fire to the Rain. LOL. :s

and NOW, my 2012 New Year's Resolutions:

1. Become more handsome!

that means, cure my acne and acne scars, have better hair(style) and dressing up more murderouslie!

2. Become nicer!

that means, NO LONGER MIND PEOPLE WHO lol/Lol/Lololol(.) me because they must have human reasons for typing so. Maybe they haven't become better people, maybe they are having a bad day and have no other better way to release their welled-up frustration, maybe they just suck or maybe what we say ain't that interesting :P

that also means that i won't mind if people call me dog or insult me because i shall not give a damn about them because i can tolerate their nonsense :D

3. Become smarter!

that means I WILL MASTER ONE NEW LANGUAGE THIS YEAR (maybe japanese, korean or french? LOL. or any other)

that also means i will learn well this year whatever i am reading in university...... though i don't know what i should read :s

4. Earn $1000 from a part-time job!

THAT MEANS I GET TO WORK AND EARN MONEYYYY :D so that i can give my parents money and give my tithe as well as have money for myself :P

5. Look for a love interest!

since i will be going to university THIS YEARRRRRR :D i will be exposed to more PEOPLE including GIRLS :D and hopefullie i'll meet someone, boy or GIRL, who will be my FRIENDDDDDDDD :D LOL.

the criteria for being attractive are as follows:

1. SMART + GOOD COMMAND OF ENGLISH
2. NICE + DOESNT non-LOL more than 10 times a month
3. HANDSOME/PRETTY :D or looks attractive LOL.

6. Touch myself less.

December 2011 marks the month I _____________ the least. HAHAHAHAHA. RECORD.
The frequency of UNPLEASANTRIES has decreased over four years from 4XX to 1XX :D WHICH TO ME IS GOOD NEWS.

Okay :D Happie New Year, Steven :D

LET'S PARTY ROCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK :D

Samuel

2011-12-30T02:12:00.002+08:00

the year is ending...... and...... i'm in a mess......

just...... plunging into disgust......

.........................................................................................

i'm a fucking fool. i want to start afresh. i don't want this mess, this satanic burden.

even my siblings don't have so many problems of this nature.

.........................................................................................

my emotional security............ will someone provide it?

i wish i will grow out of it. i'm gonna be 19.

might...... the next year be a better one?

.......................................................................................

fucking fool. shouldn't be doing all these. i know it clearly it leads nowhere.

.............................................................. i give up.

God, please give me my due punishment. God, please also forgive me......

2011-12-13T03:08:00.003+08:00

Bye guys, prom was reallie fun :B and the food was delicious!

and i'm flying off to taipei~ seeya ;D

Samuel

2011-12-12T02:52:00.000+08:00

I have done bad things, O Lord

Please, punish me!

Three-hundred-eighty-fifth Post

2011-12-07T00:52:00.008+08:00

hello guys~

do you wanna know what i do when i woo (?) people? :P
listening to Last Christmas by Glee
very simply, i keep a scoreboard.

for every action, i take note. every good, bad, vulgar, cute, sad action. the ones that make me laugh, the ones that put me off.

of course, before i even actively get to know that person, i'd already have taken scores. the way the person speaks (online, at least), the level of intelligence and emotional quotient.

in fact, i keep scores of everyone i interact with. perhaps not for the romantic future, perhaps so.

it's hard to stay cool. it's okay, increasing my threshold for patience. in fact, i haven't been minding so much that people call me "dog". it's mind-srooing, but it's okay. it's okay............

we may make our first judgment of someone, but let's keep on observing. maybe there's something else about that person? might we change our judgment then? still, i keep on observing. surely, there's a better judgment i can pass in future.

life...... how will you live it?

in any case, goodbye, my dear readers! x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-eighty-fourth Post

2011-11-27T17:46:00.002+08:00

Languages intrigue me. A malay woman just came to my gate to sell some stuff and she... spoke a bunch of malay unknowingly (?) LOL. but, it's still nice x)
_{i cried as i was about to sleep, feeling reallie hurt, thinking of steven, always thinking about him}
Samuel

Three-hundred-eighty-third Post

2011-11-14T19:50:00.003+08:00

I know...... that telling people anything has no warranty. I am fullie aware of the possible responses I may get, the possible (mis)conceptions that stem from my interaction with people. Still, I take it with a pinch of salt because I can't expect much.

We are only human, we have limits to our niceness... as a typical human being.
Still, I appreciate the niceness of others ^^ thanks for it, regardless of whether it is still existent.

I am in the midst of my A level examinations! xD thank you gordie for your undying concern for my welfare LOL.

The papers so far, in my opinion, have been bad. Unfinished questions... oh my goodness.
But I can trust that He has things under control. My grades are dedicated to Him. Without Wim, I cannot achieve such stellar results (if any).

I am thinking of changing my blogskin... because of the horrible incompatibility with IE -__-

I should, shouldn't I? ^^

Samuel

Three-hundred-eighty-second Post

2011-10-26T01:47:00.006+08:00

hello~

sobsob pimple on my left cheek... or acne... as in a real, long-staying pimple condition.

life's been great, not including the time spent on revising of course... :P

great insofar as nothing reaaaallllllie bad has happened.

i've made some observations latelie, and i suppose commenting on them here is the safest avenue...... of course, i don't want the whole world to know i am soooooo bad :x

now, i noticed there have been a few people who have been posting numerous posts on facebook. even sharing pictures with poignant words. it's...... a little !@#~!@~!#

i wish they can just STOP IT. i don't wanna unsubscribe because i would still like to know what they are up to, how they are ^^ in the caring way.

next, i suppose some people are...... not reallie as nice as you think. consciouslie ignoring you when you don't accede to their request. or reallie being unsupportive. it is as if they do not mean well at all. sigh...... of course, i'll still be nice towards them even though it is not reciprocated fullie
of course, perception of non-verbal communication is suspect. we never know how they mean it. so...... always take the benefit of the doubt and see the good in people ^_^ it's the way of progress!

on the other hand, thank God for nice people ^_^ the supportive ones. thanks for your kind words and innate genuineness when interacting with me. God bless!!

okay... i ought to sleep now x) goodnight~

Samuel

Three-hundred-eighty-first Post

2011-10-16T23:42:00.010+08:00

hey guys~

how are you doing? ^^

i have been playing a game called dragon nest with pim and sarah ^^

it's fun ^^ and i had been neglecting my work D: OH NOESS I DONT WANNA BE A _________ _____

i have the urges sometimes to post things on facebook. of course, to mock and all. then... i don't. i'm withheld by my principles.
other people are ___________________ic, i don't have to be like them.
i'll be myself ^^ at least i suffer the brunt alone
the brunt of the dissatisfaction/displeasure of others, i won't express mine.

something amazing happened just now! my sister and father had a video call with my relatives via my father's iPad and my cousin's MacbookPro i think o_o
it's amazing! a mere ipad... that relativelie thin slab of electronics being able to connect wirelessly and with astounding clarity.

hais..................................... wouldn't it have been nice if we could have communicated that way?......

i had a haircut two days ago...... and i made the hairdresser smile ^^
even as he was washing his hands, he kept on looking at me as i left the shop
of course, i waved goodbye ^^
i'm so nice............ i make people smile ):
i should continue making people smile and happie......

manie people make me smile too. i smile a lot. over the com, that is.
everytime i type an "LOL", i smile. just like you, right? @@

everytime, i imagine that i'd be able to see you again... one day.
my thoughts of you...... about only me and you......
but of course, the realitie is that i have offended your sister, your elder brother, your friends and of course you. even if you'd choose to forgive me, the others probablie won't. i'm sorry, all of you.

....................................................................................

i make myself sad, always.
~.~

i wonder how you're doing, if you're happie with ace, ya know?
i want an ace too...... my heart shocks. freezes.

pain pain x(

and i bet singaporeans can't even match the truthfulness as in ace
i'm guessing...... i'll have to be ...... where you were born.
or am i wrong? where can i get that nice a bunch of people as on crunchyroll?
i haven't been to your crunchyroll...... i'm just afraid. perhaps you have shifted, or maybe you have abandoned it. i just hate to see it. i hate to see these happen.
it just tears at my heart.

but i do have one of your icons as a loyal supporter! <<<

i wish i hadn't been so stupid. so selfish, so childish.
i wish i could have seen then. see as i can see now.
i'd apologise to whoever you want me to
......................................................................................

tired sam. tired sam needs to sleep now...... soon, i mean.
take care, will you?

hughuggg x__x

Samuel

Three-hundred-eightieth Post

2011-10-11T17:56:00.003+08:00

............

i don't denie my emotional attraction towards......
reallie good-looking people...... nice at that.

i don't know......

was i your eye candie for 20 mins? x_x
were you perhaps...... interested in me?
i mean x_x ........................................
..............................................

hmmmmmmmm............................................................

anyway, i'm reallie tired now. have lots to do x)
tomorrow's my first paperrrr. German Oral...... i have memorised most of my script for the presentation portion...... i'm just forgetting conversation skills XDDD!

......korkorrr

Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-ninth Post

2011-10-11T00:20:00.003+08:00

hello~

i had a bad experience during my parents' make-up wedding anniversary celebration at nihon mura beside yio chu kang stadium. needless to say, i spoilt everyone's mood.

i definitelie feel overwhelmed. it's past midnight... SO IN JUST ONE MORE DAY, I WILL BE SITTING FOR MY FIRST PAPER FOR THE A LEVELS!

that's TOMORROW! GERMAN ORAL!

i've been having a few practices with Frau Yong...... i can choose to be calm and answer as fluentlie as possible. i have flaws, of course, which i hope wont impede my performance...... still, i need an A for german. after all that hard work i have put in though the learning experience hadnt been as enjoyable as in secondary school :@

i just realised a few mistakes in my document...... but it's not wise to be a perfectionist. it's onlie a small mishap :P so i shall not be so affected by it.

and for my 2nd document, i overshot by 17 words...... that is horrible. LOL.

sigh. i shouldnt be so affected by this :'( sucks. after all, an A is what i want...... sigh. maybe at least a B. because i don't know what crap they will ask during orals, what they will set for compre, listening compre and what strange terms they will use in their essay questions.

i can onlie depend on myself. i should be more independent, especiallie when i'm surrounded by people who dont walk their talk. that is, they are all talk and no action. am i wrong to say that?

overwhelmed, alright. lots of stuff to do -_- time is running out. my main concern is getting a pass for H3, an A for maths, physics and chemistrie...... LOL. what course do i want to get into anyway ~.~
of course, i'll still have to aim high~ that's the way to go!

Samuel God bless us all

Three-hundred-seventy-eighth Post

2011-10-09T16:43:00.008+08:00

_{i thought it would be more appropriate posting this here than on facebook...... ya know.
listening to I Gotta Tik Tok Telephone by Joshua Simon}

Have you ever felt tired of thinking of someone?
Have you ever wished you could stop thinking about that person?

Have you ever slept so well because you knew that you have that person, just imagining he or she is beside you, willing to lapse into unconsciousness with you?

I have.

owh...... and i'm feeling sleepie alreadie ~.~

just an update ^_^

Samuel korkor/didi/deardearrrr has gotten for his prelims:

49.5% for GP an E grade

55.2% for Physics a C grade
68.0% for Chemistry a B grade
68.5% for Maths a B grade
69.2% for German a B grade

53.0% for Pharmaceutical Chemistry a Pass grade

an A grade requires at least 70%...... so i'm not that far away!
yet...... I am only confident in Chemistrie...... though generallie speaking, we never know what can happen. sigh......

scared scared ><

alrite...... back to work... lots of it ):

Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-seventh Post

2011-10-04T17:49:00.003+08:00

hello~

i recentlie encountered someone's facebook profile

he is reallie good-looking
he seems nice so far, judging from the way he speaks online
and that he has onlie one "Lol." among his whole picture collections oops

he's reallie tall! taller than youuuu xP
yet, not as tall as ........................ -_-'l|

my aim is set. hopefullie when the A levels end, i will look good enough......
become nice enough
and smart enough
and attractive enough

ohhhh noessssss i'm sooooooo ;_____;

i've ever only gotten one person to like me. more than two years ago.
one of the happiest times, of course
every night, i'd imagine momo was beside me and i'd sleep sooooo welllll

a relationship? the shame...... of course not you, momo ;D
well...............................................................................

of course i hold the thought that a real-life first encounter is the best...... i mean, not getting to know through the Web beforehand, but rather through a peer introduction?

but just how? ..........................................................

anyway, it seems like Internet Explorer isn't showing my blog the way i intended
it's meant to be viewed in Firefox now -_-
should i change my blogskin? yet, it's not as if people read this anyway......

hais

i'm interested in knowing you. you, shiro. i dont know how much you'd mind......
still, i am rather busie...... my A levels are in 7 days' time o_O
perhaps after my A levels? ;D hais......

skinship? oops

_{didi-korkor :'(}
Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-sixth Post

2011-10-02T15:01:00.004+08:00

i feel comforted knowing that i'm striving towards constant self-improvement
to make myself more attractive to people
and also to match the standards of others
xD

i know i lack a lot. i didnt take care of my bodie in the past, anyway......
so i'm in a mess now.

i hope to match the standards...... i'll have to work hard
.................................................................................

it's gonna take time... though i may be disappointed
it might not matter, since i would have raised my own standards......

_{we all need emotional support, just as we all need attention}

............

from what i have seen as of yet,
............................................ not gonna say

attractiveness...... there are manie causes of it,
definitelie not being spastic. not attractive to me, at least. ask me for a definition
oh....................... i'm actuallie a rather receptive person
if you make that miniscule effort to speak intelligibly (not intelligently) and with intention, i'll definitelie be interested in you in a non-romantic sense at least

being spastic is just the opposite. it's repulsive

it's vexing.

and when someone attractive comes along...... if you just have absolutely nothing but repulsiveness, of course people will move on to satisfie their basic emotional and social needs

...... i feel sorrie, though. i wonder how one can get out of a... truthfully, pathetic state. are your friends able to help you? i hope so, because i don't like seeing people wallow in self-pity, doing absolutely nothing on their own part to effect positive change and in the end, they are still in the same plight. in the end...... they might just take their own lives. it's sad.
please, God, watch over and protect us
Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-fifth Post

2011-10-01T21:28:00.002+08:00

it's okay if people ignore me intentionallie.

i'm fine.

i wish you well, though

^^ God bless

omggggggg i'm soooooo stressed :P

my wisdom tooth is erupting! it hurts! ):

i had been experiencing withdrawal!
it's painful, alright. mentallie painful, too.

hmm..................................................................................

my results havent been good...... ):
so sad! A levels coming!
in 11 days!!!!!! :'(

mushroom! xD

i hate my coated tongue x10000 Z_Z
beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hmm...... i wanna be as handsome as before O:
remember? ;D

it's gonna be a challenge...... but i'll try ^^

Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-fourth Post

2011-09-24T23:24:00.002+08:00

hello......

a successful woman once told me not to daydream

actuallie, she didn't tell me not to daydream. but i bet a successful person doesnt daydream. as supported by my mother.

sigh......

but i just keep on daydreaming... at least thinking of people
fantasising. hoping.

just hoping. just hanging on to the chance i will meet somebody
maybe you guys dont know, but there isnt any reason to die anymore.
at least i will be living for the next few years. and beyond.

i have good news! my acne condition has gotten better ^^
but the scars on my left cheek still remain......
perhaps i would still, as tiffanie had said, be as f-ing handsome as before

it's been more than 2 years... how have you been?
i hope all the time that you are fine. perhaps living a happie life with ASCE
though i worrie now and then if you are still doing those dangerous stuff... for a good cause, yes, yet so dangerous......................................

i'm eighteen now. yayyy ^^
is eighteen the hawt age? you'll be eighteen too next year xD
geez................... volcanic eruption of molten hawtness wherever you are!
x) i bet on that.

i wish there were someone better than you, that i would meet that person
but the thing is, the person doesn't exist.

x___x but someone that matches you. everything!
the intelligence, the looks, the niceness

there's just no one!

no one listens to me either. not every word
not even sammel. it's just sad.
just saddddddddddddddddddddddddd
listen as in listening to what one is speaking
..................................................................................

i miss you a lot. i always think of you.
i'm just afraid i'll never have the chance to contact you again.
it just pains me.

i wish you were reading this. i dont intend that this and all the previous posts make you come back, but i wish at least you know my feelings towards you. not that you don't know.

alright. i should go to bathe and turn in soon.

ti penso sempre x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-third Post

2011-09-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

hello.

the environment makes the man, i'd say
it's virtually inevitable. what we become depends on the environment we live in.

hence, drain bamage has been done. seemingly unhealable
i believe onlie divine healing can undo the damage.
drain bamage...... isn't it sad?

yet, all is not lost. even if we reside in an inconducive environment, with personal might and determination, and perhaps with some divine aid, we can persevere unaffected
or at least with onlie a little damage.

the environment makes the man

to extend this, it's important we halt the existence of such a detrimental environment, so that our offspring do not suffer the same fate, perpetrating the vicious cycle

at least make them strong-willed. so that they can make decisions for themselves.

will i be able to do that? as of now, will i be able get through undeviated?

such an inconducive environment.
may the Lord work his powers on this world
Samuel

Three-hundred-seventy-second Post

2011-09-06T01:42:00.004+08:00

ello~

it's been quite some time since i last blogged.

eating pringles, seaweed flavour...... cheapo, but still yummie!
hence, typing with one hand =x

henceforth = from now/then on
hence = thus = as a result

just so you know this feeling's taking control of me and i can't help it

i ought to be more diligent :'( i'm sure you would be

i'm reallie eating this pringles o_O

i have a premonition. i'm gonna flunk GP
i wish you'd be there to comfort me :'(

God bless Sammel, one and all!

-went to wash hands after having stopped eating-

alritie. typing with the flat surfaces of my fingers because my nails are overgrown and i dont want my macbook PRO keyboard to get defaced... hehehe =P

sobsob, my alluring complexion is now a thing of the past ):
and it's snowing again. ifyaknowwhatimean:x

watching al yankovic's parodies on youtube... xD

here's one for you ^^

arghs, havent bathed... and it's 2.16 am alreadie ):
@@

i'll bathe now, okay? ;D

take care, seeya another time

Samuel

2011-08-21T03:31:00.003+08:00

my well-being on the whole varies sinusoidally

whenever there's a setback, i break
and i break even more after that.
i break until i reach the nadir
and i always ask God to punish me
to forgive me too

He knows it's hard (?) then again, it's my fault
i think if i were to just give up, things would go uphill on being a sinner
still, i'm reserving a little for you. just for you.
you, momo. you, スティーブン.
how have you been? i hope you have been well.

the only one imbued with the three attractive qualities
the one with the looks, the brains and the heart

i was such a fool.

i can't help it.
if only you could shackle me from evil, keep me unstrayed

you're the person who could read me best. you're the best.
best in every aspect. you beat people by more than a hundred times

please forgive me. i'll do anything you want me to to atone for my mistakes.

i have to go now. please do not forget me completely.
even though it's best that you do

Samuel

Three-hundred-seventieth Post

2011-07-22T23:36:00.003+08:00

hello hello~

isn't it nice to live without any obligations?

it's like you're a loner, unbounded to anyone, you live, you die, you're free to do so.

i cannot escape from the evil clutches. of the adults.

i stronglie hope my heart fails. seems like there's a threshold for respiration anyway. from years of heartaches, my heart must have hardened somewhere.

my dreams for the future were just those. just dreams.

painful seven years.

Great. Take away my medical report and ask for one.
to complete my medical examination/investigation.

can anyone save me? can anyone even hear me?

我想走。我真的想走
到遥远之地，不再回来

i like drawing knives on my paper.

cars travel quickly at bishan.

another one of them. a bad korkor, just no different
cold, cleaving responses. heart cleaver.
心如刀割

it's a miracle i lived past 18.

niemand versteht mich. i'm just waiting, waiting for that moment
for that moment to leave.

you'll have to kill me to check me. check my corpse, fucking paedophiles.

shoot me.

i can't wait to die.

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-ninth Post

2011-07-16T18:15:00.005+08:00

ello~

it's the 19th of julie, saturday

yesterday, two things happened O:

first, it was my H1 Chinese A level Oral exams @@
hmm... compared to last year, i'd say this year was better :\
i'm still hoping for an A though! ):

second, it was a poetry slam for my german class
i got 2nd ^_^ even though i'm the reserved and quiet one
people said i was expressive and brave
:DDD! i got a polo t-shirt as a prize :D

"Ich habe dieses Gedicht geschrieben, denn es dient als eine Erinnerung an jemanden......"
-awws- xD

i accompanied some of my german classmates to mos burger at junction 8 and i was like... 不倒翁
a roly-poly!

xD

then i went to serangoon and took bus service 109 with warren... but WARREN DID NOT WAKE ME UP
so i ended at changi D:
ASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

so i took a 109 back z_z at least i got to see more parts of singapore ^^

i woke up at 7 am today actuallie, but i continued to sleep until 3 pm -_-
it was because of my dream ): i woke up and looked at the clock and decided to go back to sleep because:
1. i haven't slept for 8 hours
2. i wanted to return to dreamland ):

the dream was on harrie potter... i dreamt i went to watch it
.......................... what a weird dream. popcorn in ice milo -____- LOL

i've been waking up at 3 pm lor ): stupid

on thursday, i went for my NS Checkup _|_
spent like 5 hours there. Central Manpower Base. _______

x__x

that x-ray doctor is a perv. fucking hell blatantly looked at my chest.

the eye station people: 1 is nice, the other is a _________________________________
fill in the blanks. dutiful but could be more courteous

and at the hearing station, i was given a survey form to fill up... and i forgot to return the pen. oops

OH. at the measurements station for outfits, that uncle. _____

x__x

and when i had to have my blood drawn, that doctor was like. using rhetorics?
so i replied "WHAT THING?" coz i didnt get him
o_O

_{:\ there was someone
x_____x arghs

LOL probablie will freak out. lalala}

that's all, folks
till next time x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-eighth Post

2011-07-04T04:24:00.002+08:00

hello~

i should try to blog more regularlie......

i'm listening to River Flows in You by Yiruma right now... sounds prettie good <:

_{sad to say that i've been poisoned in thought. evil, deplorable thoughts are fixated in my head.}

and now i'm listening to the guitar cover by sungha jung <:

it's onlie four more months till my A levels!

alrite i'm tired @@ goodnite~

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-seventh Post: 1st/2nd July 2011

2011-07-02T19:54:00.003+08:00

Hi guys.

I have sad news......

Spiderman has left. He has succumbed to his illness.
He left with an extremely bloated body......

He had been living for 2 years and a few months......

Remember why I got him?
To mark the day I was discharged from hospital.
He's supposed to symbolise somebody.

Though he has gone, I will never forget my dear Spiderman, like how I will never forget you.

He has 5 children to succeed him.

My docile Spiderman...............................

God bless you )'; < DD

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-sixth Post: Happy 20th Birthday!

2011-06-13T00:57:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday brother :D
may God bless you and your life this year till forever!

Three-hundred-sixty-fifth Post

2011-06-03T23:22:00.004+08:00

hey~~

how have you been?

my acne is like erupting T.T i feel the "poisoned" sensation in my left cheek. so sad ):

other than that, i think my hair is nice :B
for now D:

thank God i didn't <_> succumb to [wherever applicable]
Thank GOD.

other than that, i'm feeling a little upset
sad boi~~~

first week of holidays has passed ^_^ time flies when we are having fun

i try my best to see value in certain aspects. i try not to be perturbed.
perturbed. apt description.

i know you'd understand. my 知己.

how have you been? x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-fourth Post: happy birthday, steven

2011-05-12T00:25:00.000+08:00

Happie birthday to you~
happie birthday to you~
happie birthday to steven~~~~~~~~~~ and steph~~~~
happpppppiiieeeeeee birthhhhhhhhdayyyyy toooooooooooo yyyyyyyeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~~~~~ ;D

生日快乐~
selamat hari jadi~~
Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag~ ;D

생일 축하합니다~ ;D

お誕生日おめでとうございます！

you're 17 le, how time flies!
back then, you were onlie 15 D:
..................

may you have a great day today! God bless you!

i'll always think of you, i'll never forget you!
-don't know what to say here xD- i miss you. i think of you always... i hope you think of me too. take careee
Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-third Post

2011-05-10T19:40:00.002+08:00

today is a rather bad day. but... i deserve it

my house is a hospice.
spiderman is incontinent. or he just has some sickness...
i feel sad

......................................................................................

i hope you are doing fine.
...

Three-hundred-sixty-second Post

2011-04-28T01:54:00.003+08:00

ahaaa, i'm being a kind person by helping someone with his PI
KIND SOULLLLLLLLL :@

and looking at an old photo album... dating just more than two months ago
ya know, seniors-meet-juniors?

all the fresh faces, the potential to make new friends

smiles...............................

now just memories......
alles im Kopf, sage ich immer

will definitelie miss all of you! all of those in the pictures, the selves

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixty-first Post

2011-04-15T00:03:00.003+08:00

Happie birthday mom :D

May the Lord fill your life with happiness and content

생일 축하합니다!

Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag!

生日快乐！

Selamat hari jadi :D

_{and the music video in the previous post is embedded for musical purposes onlie, so i in no way advocate/whatever what the video is about :@

i think i'm a verie tolerant person. i swallow everything, i don't complain. because, what's the point? 我觉得我这样做显得比较高尚。you know what i mean o_O

hais, was kann ich tun. macht nichts,
ich versuche, mit anderen anzusprechen, vielleicht? es ist schwierig für mich, aber ich werde probieren!

i'm cautious about who i hang out with, don't worrie
i won't be affected..........................

and my german workload is wtfox lah. what can i say? anstrengend, aber doch zu anstrengend. mindestens besser als Wirtschaftswissenschaft. oder?}

hahaha my time management is reallie bad :P

God bless one and all,

Samuel

2011-04-04T01:42:00.000+08:00

Three-hundred-fifty-ninth Post: Genting Trip 2011

2011-03-21T01:20:00.007+08:00

hey, it's 1126 hr now :D

SO, i left the house at around 7.10 pm :P reached dexus in 5 mins yay i'm punctual ^^v
i brought along my sister's sling camera bag to contain my passport and money O: 600 ringgit from my father ^^
over there were a few people alreadie, think there's nick, jonathan, daryl... LOL! and others, for sure.
slowlie, more people came down, including ms goh O: woah, she has reallie slimmed down :\

closing 8+ or so, we finallie boarded the bus :D there were a total of 4 dexus teachers, seven 1994 people, seven 1993 people and 2 small ger ger :X
and also a bunch of other people :D including two other teachers

WE SET OFFFFFFFF WEEEEEEEEEEEE XDDDDDD

i sat at the back of the coach, at the right-hand corner
was totallie looking out of the window the whole time, enjoying the scenerie O:
i love observing things as i go by them :\ prettie amazing. and ya know what? the moon was FREAKING BEAUTIFUL :D
it's known as a SUPERMOON O_O LOOK UP WIKIPEDIA. I SWEAR IT WAS FREAKING BEAUTIFUL T_T

the coach drove us to tuas checkpoint O: finallie i got the chance to use the automated passport checker machine thing o_O 4 years ago, i couldnt because i wasnt 15 yet ):
kinda cool o_O LOL! :D :D Bon Voyage, Tan Samuel Yuan Han :D

soon, we boarded the coach again O:

sure, we passed by many toll stations
and stopped at some checkpoints along the way to take a break

all the while, other than looking at what's going on in the coach, i'd been looking outside O: most of it were malaysian buildings, a tonne of private housing @@ terraced houses
i kept on saying to myself, it's so F__________ing beautiful T.T because it reallie is!
i even saw some malaysian flats O: totallie cool @@ they looked reallie stylo and new, totallie cool :\

played angry birds with thanaes... LOL. :D
and listened to some music on his phone~

hours passed and soon we're entering genting O: the bus was all dark, we slowlie drove up the mountain O:
it was prettie cool, @@ the scenerie was so beautiful
hi i just woke up at 1546 hr T.T
LOL i like the journey up. damn cool LOL! many sharp turns @_@

we slowlie ascended above the clouds ;D getting cold outside, touching the window pane feels cold O:
very soon, we passed by this familiar white housey thing x)
and up we went @@ i totallie stayed awake most of the whole journey from singapore to genting, totallie kool ):
AND WE REACHED SOON XDDDDDDD
a total journey of around 6.5 hours :D i thought it was 9 ): but GOOD. :D GENTING <3

we soon checked in, room 8564... i think. LOL!
oh, speaking of which, i learned the term "sperm towel" from ms lim. LOL! HOTEL TOWELS ARE SPERM TOWELS SO PLEASE BRING YOUR OWN :@ which is true......
we placed our luggage and went out for some prebreakfast :B
so the four of us (jonathan, daryl, thanaes and i) went out on our own first. didnt know what to eat :s
i ordered kfc. LOL the chicken. super sadded LOLOL
DONT GO KFC PLEASE :@

then we all went to macdonalds... the rest are all there le.
i got a set of filet-o-fish o_O
was totallie entertained by jon the joker. LOLOLOLLLLLL
it was prettie cold x) i liked it alot. <3

i can't remember where we went next O: maybe starbucks. to get a drink ^_^
we soon had to turn in, loads of fun and games await the next day ^_^

so i slept for around 4 hours...... LOL :@ T.T had a bad stomach T.T
in the end, we all woke up at closing 10, all prepped up ^_^

went into the teachers' room with ms goh, ms wong and ms BP to check out O:
LOL they took some pictures :x

i was so damn bored waiting that i went downstairs to walk around and then upstairs to walk around @_@ genting is love <3

soon we all congregated, and went for breakfast at the kopitiam <3
i had chicken rice... with ice milk tea o_O prettie yummie :B

after breakfast, we all went to get our tickets le ;D
went to the ticketing booth at the entrance of the outdoor theme park
ms goh had a GentingWorld card =o so we had discount ^_^
and it was daryl's birthday, so he entered for free! WHAT THE LOL!

FIRST STOP. WE WENT FOR THE...... no idea about the name LOL but it had to do with driving some old car o_O because it was raining ):
sat with ms wong :B we sat at the front car. behind us were like 10 + cars. LOL!
we decided to drive slowlie :B
during the journey we looked at the surroundings and kept on looking backwards :B to take some pictures and all.

we soon got off after 10 mins =o and we had to wait for carlson, davis, zhi hui and ms BP LOL
they seriouslie joker sia, they purposelie drive damn slow :@ like 15 mins or more. which is good LOL!

next stop, we went for the space shot :B it was a long queue,
and i sat beside pearlyn who sat beside cai jun. LOL!
wah..................................................................................
maybe you guys don't know, but space shot is my favourite ride in the world :'(
we were soon propelled upwards...... i thought to myself, i've sat this manie times and i find it more thrilling than scarie
but looking down...... WTF SO HIGH T_T
LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL
WHEN WE PLUNGED DOWN, I SCREAMED A TOTALLIE OF THREE TIMES LOL
was like superscared and out of breath T.T AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH T.T

i was superflustered as i came down T.T
sobsob T.T T_T
T____________T
but it was fun LOLLLL :D

next stop, we went to the corkscrew if i am not wrong :B prettie fun! LOL!
we waited for so long................. think more than 30 mins lor. but we had each other to chat with and all ^_^
LOLOL omg. i totallie screamed myself hoarse T.T hais
flustered as well. ):

we also went got the gigantic chain swing ride ;D
it was prettie cool~ it's more of a relaxing ride o_o where the chilling wind brushes against you. i like < DD
but this time it felt like it lasted so much shorter :@ dammit :@

we all got some roasted chestnuts =o and also some tea egg. LOL hot sia xD
while ms lim and her students sat the chain swing ride.
so we just stoned a while and enjoyed the wind...
daryl and a few other people also threw some coins into the "wishing pond" :D some fail throws LOL

in the end, it was around 4+++++++++++ le, the teachers and all decided to go shopping and all =o while i stuck with the guys, they wanted to play further
which i wanted to do to o_o but it was raining, and the pirate ship ride was closed ):
in the end, they all decided to go back...

LOL i followed them then :\
we went back the the hotel room...

i went into the 1994 guys' room, was trying hard to drag people to play with me T.T in the end, noone wanted to join me T.T
so i quicklie rushed back to the outdoor themepark @@ but the spaceshot was closed alreadie ):
LOL some indian tourist was kinda trying to get the crew to allow him to join :x

in the end, i was a little dejected :\ but thankfullie, the pirate ship was opened ^_^
so i stayed there... LOL. there was a group of people too o_O teenagers. vulgar sia LOL. playing yo-yos, too.
after a while, we boarded the ship ^_^
the ride............................. what a fail ride. or lazie operators. tsk tsk LOL
it took like 5 mins to decelerate and stop. like seriouslie. but okay lah ^_^
went back to the hotel room lor, we were meeting up soon at 6.30pm to have dinner ^_^

so we slacked at the guys' room o_o nick was sleeping. was like touching his hair wee~ :D
while thanaes was playing music on his phone and jian ler was like...... feeling boyish? LOL
WHY :@
LOLOLOL XD

soon, it was 6.30 :B we all went to the kopitiam again... this time, i had fish and chips :B yumyum ;D
we all then decided to go bowling ^_^ LOL!

:D :D omg you should have seen how the alley looked like :D it was dark, it was full of luminous labels and pop music blasting! @_@ they also had the light which makes white objects glow. LOL!

it was a BVG MATCH, with the girls team comprising ms wong, ms goh, ms BP, celeste, caris and JONATHAN
the boys team comprised carlson, davis, daryl, zhi hui, thanaes and ME (the last player) :D
the loser team will have to pay for the winner team's games :D

LOL i totallie sucked can T.T totallie f-ed up my bowls. LOL!
it was a close match, with each team creeping up on the other from time to time @@
i'm like the fail player ):
zhihui bowled before me, so he got like three strikes in a row and they all cheered :D
and then came the anticlimax player. LOL ):
it was reallie fun, watching how we all scored a strike and all...... LOL
for me, my ball kept on swerving to the left side, so it either hit one pin or no pin T.T
the farnie thing is that everytime i fail, my teammates will like tell me what to do... which i can't lah! and i always laugh coz i cant help it. with laughing and playing well LOL.
even carlson told me "you can do it", and that was like one of the onlie times he spoke to me. LOL
i felt so guiltie that if we lost, it'd be my fault that we would have to pay ):
even ms goh suggested: pay or strip
LOL. which do you think i would choose? :x

soon, the girls team has finished bowling. the score was like... 413. LOL!
and the guys team was like 413 on daryl's turn which was two turns behind mine! LOL!
so daryl anyhow throw lor! then it went into the left gutter and just as it was about to hit the sensor, it suddenlie flipped back up to knock down FIVE PINS LOLOLOL! EPIC. EVERYONE WAS LIKE "oh....................... *miracle* HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

needless to say, it was finallie my turn :P
and davis told me to bowl as per normal. LOL!
and guess what? I SPARED LOLOLOL and everyone cheered and clapped for me ;DDDD
and i scored a 7 on the last bowl. total score: 50 :D which is my target for my first game whenever i go bowling. LOL!
so i am safe ;D < DD

it was a totallie cool experience, bowling in the dark and all. LOL!
then we all split up, the guys went to play pool while i followed the teachers and girls around to shop shop =o

we went into a shop called bumcity... prettie cool o_O
so we walked around lor...... ms goh wore a farnie looking hat LOL!

we walked by a bakerie O: and the teachers bought a little cupcake-thing ^_^ it was for daryl. a secret :x

so then they decided to go back to the hotel room first and told me to meet at starbucks at 10.30 pm. it was like 9.30 then =o
i decided to go walk around, shopping on my own ^_^

so i walked around...... looking at all the shops. LOL! even went to the shop which sold the bear i bought 4 years ago :x
so expensive, still T.T

walked walked~ walked past some little stalls in the mall, like kiosks o_o
wah, saw toy bears being sold at 3 for RM 10... LOL! then i entered bumcity too, looked around...... or is it RM 10 for 3?
walked around the whole plaza ._. super cold and nice <3

@@ it was closing 10.30, so i quicklie got 6 bears O: and rushed to starbucks but NOONE THERE LOL
so i waited for a while...... then decided to go up to the room to see if they're there.
noone's in my room, though. decided to place my things there first, then i decided to take a bear out to give to daryl O:
after a super long while, ms wong, ms BP, ms goh and all 7 of us 1993 people were downstairs.
ms goh and ms wong asked daryl for a cigarette. i couldnt believe it LOL!
of course, ms goh wanted to ask for a lighter :x
eventuallie, someone else lighted the candle and we all sang happie birthday ;D including me whose mouth is forever shut. LOL
and i sang in tune, not like 80% of hwa chong people... cough cough. just kidding :D

it was like 11.30pm alreadie
i decided to go shopping till 1am, since they had the late-night shopping :B
so i went to buy 3 more bears coz i thought i'd need more to give people when i come back ^_^
and i entered bumcity again O:
@@

was like dragging myself around... perhaps i should get some clothes O:
then i saw some clothes. so i went to trie some on. LOL @@
stripped~ LMAO
okay lah, looks nice @@ so i requested for a new set...... O:

then i went to look for pants...... i saw a freaking expensive pair. RM 100 LOL!
a sign said 50% off... but didnt know if the price was alreadie shaved or not O:
so i approached this shuai ge salesguy. LOL!
then he went to check with this salesgirl colleague and told me nope. ^^v
okay, then i asked him if there were other pants that were like the one i asked about... then he went to take two pairs. LOL!
then okay, i went to trie on @@ i decided the expensive RM 100 still better. LOL!
then i asked for a size bigger one ^_^ then i went to trie again
then i realised i left my handphone and hankerchief in the previous pants @@ so i quicklie came out of the dressingroom and looked for the salesgirl @@
and of course, she got the same pants back and i got my stuff back :B

okay, lastlie, i wanted to get some shades @@ sunshades.
so i asked for shuai ge's help again...... of course, they couldn't help lah. how to help with shades? LOL.
so i just stood there and stoned x 100 and finallie chose two pairs ><
okay lah, then went to pay and all... sobsob :'(

i didn't leave the store immediatelie, i stayed back and asked salesguy and salesgal if we could chat @@
and they said yes ;D

so we chatted for more than an hour...... i spoke mandarin okay, my mandarin is not bad. can converse a bit. but they can tell it was bad LOL!it's 2122 hr now
so i asked many questions...... like how old they were (the guy's 1993, the girl's 1994 O.O)
i asked where they stay, where they came from, how long they have worked, what school they go to
while salesgal had to entertain some customer, salesguy asked if i had facebook. LOLLLLLLLLL XD
i wrote my email address and my full name... he pronounced my name "s-air-mee-ool" LOL xD and he introduced himself as josh :B
i asked if life at genting was good, i asked if their salary was okay
aiya, i asked manie things lah :D and they asked in return, of course
salesgal asked if i had facebook, and josh told her he's got it alreadie. salesgirl then introduced herself as Micky ;D
i asked what they were doing after work...
they said they were going to the club in genting and asked me to come along but i couldnt, i said i had to return to the hotel room O:
we chatted about their colleagues too, two other lengzais in particular, one dressed neatlie and the other...... LOL
pull up his shirt can see his drooping jeans and boxers :@
he had a comb in his jeans pocket, too, and wore blue shoes with flaps on the side
my goodness, malaysia @@ such a nice place. nice people, too T.T

渐渐的，到了一点钟。他们要关门了……
well, i'd never wish to go, i'd wish to stay forever :'(
in the end, i took out two bears... and gave each of them one >.<
hais, miss them a lot ;D

i grabbed my stuff and speed-walked away @@ down the escalator........... LOL!

AND YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?!

I FORGOT TO ZIP MY CAMERA BAG AND IT INVERTED >< AND MY COINS AND NOTES AND STUFF DROPPED OUT ONTO THE ESCALATOR ><
i was like ):!!! and stoned for a while before i started to slowlie pick up my stuff @@
unfortunatelie, i wasnt quick enough to pick up the scattered coins @@ and the escalator suddenlie stopped. LOL!
some helpful tourists on the escalator behind me helped pick up my money and passed it to me @@ so sorrie, so paiseh ): i was super stressed and flustered @@ i made the people on the escalator have to walk down ): did i spoil the escalator? ):
soon, i picked up everything >< i apologised to people... and i quicklie ran away ):
like, speed-walked down to the lobbie LOL :X

quicklie got upstairs @@ was reallie flustered and exhausted ):
just went into the bathroom to bathe... shiok sia. i love the bath <3 it's like 10 times the power of my shower, with more holes. LOL!

@@

turned in earlie... figured i should get some rest :\

so i slept...... till dunnoe what time x)

woke up O: perhaps 7? and i wanna say now, my pants was totallie LOLOL!
the same pair that chased someone away ): but NEVERMIND. :@ i shouldnt wear it man. except to wild wild wet LOL

so we all proceeded to macdonalds~ had hotcakes ^_^ and tea ;D
and i related the escalator incident to ms wong...... LOL xD
soon, we had to go @@ and i brought along the nice macdonald paperbag ^_^ and my tea
drinking my tea while walking is HARD LOL. TRIE DOING THAT :@
walked beside nick ^_^ sucha nice fella.
sobsob, we went upstairs @@ and took our baggage and all. had to hand over the hotel key to ms lim ): i wanted to keep the key ): sobsob T.T

very, very soon, we walked to the bus terminal and boarded the bus ): i'm so going to miss this place, i'm so going to miss josh and micky too ):
sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo );
it was 9am+
this time, thanaes didnt want to let me sit next to the window ): okay lor, nevermind......

we slowlie drove down the hill...... @@ kinda dangerous. LOL!
drove for a long time......
our first checkpoint was some prawncrackers-selling place ^_^ i remember the place ;D
the same thing happened, some person would be standing by the coach door and giving out discount cards :P
so... i bought like 6 packets of "Genting famous White Prawn Crackers" o_O ;D
and they taste good. perhaps should have brought more :\ now like no more to give valerie. sorrie :x

afterwards, we all went to...... malacca :D
to shop :D LOL! it was like 12++ :x
so we all split up into small cliques and went shopping ^_^ my clique consisted of thanaes, jian ler, jing cong, nick and me :D
we walked around the place... it's called Jusco, i think o_o the gigantic mall in the middle of nowhere. LOL. prettie cool place! D:

we all walked around... entered many shops, jing cong bought some IT stuff, thanaes bought some *cough cough* CDs :D we totallie walked around x) and went to some clothes shop. we spent quite some time there buying clothes O:
i got this shirt. it's the Best. Shirt. Ever. LOL!! I am dead serious :x

time flies when we're having fun :\ i reallie enjoyed shopping. never had i enjoyed shopping so much @@ that's because i went shopping with friends! new experience for all :D

it was around 2, we went to this place to eat O: we all ordered a bunch of food :P
and i got myself a RM 0.99 teh tarik ^^ had tomyum soup. FREAKING DELICIOUS!
it's kinda like just acia, there was a variety of food O: jing cong had tomyum rice, thanaes had sizzling beef, nickkkkk♥had salmon, jianler had i-dont-know-what xD

we all had a great time eating ;D
i chatted with thanaes, he told me about his past where his father used to live here (i think), he had a house that was just a gigantic land space with many compartments...... prettie cool.
^_^ the food was great and affordable too :D
6% GST and 5% Service Charge :D better than Singapore :D HMPH

it was 2.40pm le, we all decided to go to Jusco departmental store......
on the way up to the 2nd level, i saw a little stitch toy at a stall :D so luckie :D
so i bought it :D for sammel :DDD
nick nick bought a mr bean bear, it's reallie cute :P and he was reallie ........... imitating mr bean. LOL! :X
thanaes was browsing for some clothes, so the rest of us split up :P
we walked around~ and around~ and decided to go to the shop that thanaes bought the CDs from :x
first thing i asked, 请问这些是不是…… LOL! and they said yes LOLOL!
xD one disc cost 15 ringgit, kinda more highlie priced so we decided not to buy lor.
then we all walked to this shop that was selling sunshades for RM 5 a piece... LOL!
we spent like freaking more than 10 minutes choosing a shade T.T it's reallie hard ):
LOL! hais, in the end chose one @@ and the sales girl introduced me to get a membership card...... 1 ringgit. okay lah, souvenir :D

we all rushed to the rally point... it was 3.20 le LOL, late :X
in the end, the coach auntie told us ms lim extended the time to 4.15 :D so we had more time :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D one more hour to shop with :D :D :D

so we decided to go to places we haven't gone to...... walked around sommore, went to jusco first floor :B, then second floor, and third floor!
we hung out at the kids arcade :P LOL cheap sia, play time crisis 2 costs one token, each token costs 1 ringgit!! OMG LIKE 50 cents :D CHEAPER THAN IN SINGAPORE
even playing the drums costs 1 token
playing initial D costs 1 token @@ playing the basketball game costs 1 token OMGGGGG ><
nick sucked at the drums game can LOL :x and i got a token as a souvenir ^_^
it's a reallie cute coin O: it's golden and has a cute teddiebear face on it... ;D
i got another to try out the mole game... ya know? take a hammer and hit the mole when they emerge from the hole, just that this one was about cats and mice, gotta hit the mice but not the cats O:
okay lah, not so bad :P not to mention the counter uncle was reallie polite!

and there were bian tai people playing basketball lah... tmd :@
soon, it was reaching 4 O: pressed for time @@ and jing cong got owned by some malaysian kid in initial D LOL! i dont know why but he drove like shiiiatttttt XD

we all proceeded quicklie down and rendezvoused with the rest ^^ thanaes, ms lim and the girls. celeste gave me hershey's cookies and creme ^_^ i ate a little bar, and i fed nick one too :D sooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttttttt xD

sucha nice place, malacca. sucha nice place, malaysia x)

we all drove to dunnoe where le, some place in malacca. nothing nice to buy though, prettie boring o_o

so we set off again... last stop ><

to some restoran O: this time, the food was FREAKING GOOD! COMPARED TO LAST TIME @@
THE FOOD WAS AWESOME OMG ><
there was shark's fin soup (regardless of whether it's real or synthetic), cereal prawn, vegetables, chicken meat, rice, many food items @@ it was fit for a wedding banquet!!!!! D:
it was kinda a hilarious dinner LOL
zhihui exclaimed HAHAHA when a gigantic flie emerged from under a cup @@ and startled ms wong too!
and jon stepped on a flie D: grossssss LOL

when i finished eating, i went to the bathroom O:
saw many abandoned buildings...... i tried hard to think of the word
and i thought of it. squatters. not that there are people, but just that i recalled a word that goes with abandoned buildings xD
i love my intelligence <3

we took a few pictures on stage :P

soon, we made our way to the bus @@ freaking lots of gigantic flies.......... WHYYYYYYYYYYY

verie verie soon, we're traveling home >< traveled for a longgggggg timeeee
i was feeling quite sad alreadie :'( we're leaving the beautiful country, going back to singapore...... hais :'(
felt so sadddddddd.....................
i'm gonna miss this place, i'm gonna miss some people.
gonna miss spending time with people.

xD

the coach uncle and auntie left at a tollgate in johor bahru :P while we continued on our way to tuas checkpoint......
it was a reallie long way @@

our last checkpoint, we stopped at some petrol station. i reallie needed to surf tide anyway LOL! :D
ms lim said the area is fraught with robberies and all though @@ kinda scared. thankfullie had the awesome and terrifying david, zhihui and carlson :B

FINALLIE, WE WERE ON OUR WAY HOMEEEEEEEEEEE Dx
we arrived at tuas checkpoint... there was some traffic jam. jon was freaking joking his ass off LOL HILARIOUS AS HELL
scaring poor thanaes :x telling stories of his friends and sister's friends...... i can't help it, he's a natural :D

there was a stupid jam at the customs. -_- seriouslie. LOL! but thank God, we made it home :D
we made ittttt x)

our coach drove us back to dexus... ms goh alighted earlier at sengkang O:
we all bade farewell at the busstop near dexus x)

nick and i walked home. turns out he stays rather near me o_o
it was good, i love spending time with people, with him in particular
well, gave him the leftover hershey's. ;D

trudged home. unpacked my stuff. everything. went to bathe. went online. chatted with josh. sucha charmer x)
missed them loads, missed them loads
misssssssssssssssedddddd everything freaking loads x(

well, all in all, i'm glad i managed to have fun
i'm glad i could see a supermoon, i am glad i had fun, i am glad i could observe the beautie of malaysia, all the flats and private housing and all.
i'm glad for the delicious food i've had, i'm glad for bowling
i'm glad for the concern and understanding, the help and the care
i'm glad i spent qualitie time with thanaes and co.
i'm glad even more to have spent time with my beloved ms wong and also little nick
i'm glad i've met josh and micky, i'm glad. i'm so damn glad for everything x)

well, got to know josh more over facebook, facebook mail... nick too.
hopeful that good things would come out. reallie hopeful.

goodnite one and all,

Samuel 0218 hr, 22nd March 2011

hey guys, i am back ;D
2 hours ago, actuallie. LOL :D

my heart is filled with extreme joy on friday, from all the way we set off to all the way we came back.

but reallie, i felt verie sad to come back. so damn sad :'(

I'll blog another day, okay. Reallie wish to turn in now x)

Definitelie missed you too,

Samuel

Three-hundred-fifty-eighth Post

2011-03-18T18:14:00.003+08:00

alrite

i'm all prepped up, readie to go x)

wish you were hereeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
or there. i mean, at genting with me...

GRR MY HAIR :@
and my eyebags omggggggggg

i must walk among the freaking eyecandies, both boy and girl
T.T

eeeeeeeks, there's a freaking oil clog below my lower lip :@ freak it.

hope i will have fun,
hope all things will turn out well >.<

hopeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

seeya guys x)

Samuel 1844 hr

Three-hundred-fifty-seventh Post

2011-03-17T23:02:00.004+08:00

heyyyy~

had a nice day today x)

in fact, had a nice week so far. LOL!
every single day had event :D

on sunday, we went to IT fair and etc....
on monday, i had a chinese chess competition :B
on tuesday, had a haircut and all
on wednesday...... ~~no idea. LOL~~ cleaned hamster cages ;D
on thursday (today), had breakfast with joya and spent my afternoon and onwards with sammel and pirates :B

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee x) seriouslie enjoyable. i wish every single was like that ):

TOMORROW GOING GENTING LE @@ feeling tired ):

hais. what to wear? comfie underwear :B ;D
hope to have lots of fun ;D wish you were here );

wish you were here. wish you were here. wish you were there with meeeeeeeeee.............

*breathes in deeplie through the nose*

I miss you, スティーブン

Samuel

Three-hundred-fifty-sixth Post

2011-03-14T22:32:00.003+08:00

;D

스티벤, 내가 이겼어요 ;D

봐봐 ;D

it's an achievement! first trophie...... ;D
teamed with hanloong and mingyang, of course will own lah LOL

I HAVE A NEW WINNING RECORD OMG < DDD
6W1L0D

SIX WINS OMGGGGGGG <3333

lost one to nicholas the pro :@ from RJC
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO RJC FIRST T_T we all did badlie while playing with RJC team A. bummer ):

but reallie, we totallie owned the rest ^_^ LOL
omg lah hanloong 7 wins ;eeks bian tai. LOL

;D manie goodlooking people too LOL

hmm2, tiring day O;

should turn in soon bah x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-fifty-fifth Post

2011-03-11T04:31:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday, Justinnnnnnn
生日快乐
Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag
Selamat hari jadi
생일 축하합니다
お誕生日おめでとうございます。 omg this is hard to type ):

Take care, viel Spaß in der Schule

Samuel

1411 hours

hello, i'm back~ from school
had block test today x__x i guess i kinda completed my GP essay for once. but i screwed up my AQ. LOL >:

^_^ received a letter from my mortal, damn nice of him lah ;D

2011-03-06T23:08:00.003+08:00

i'm sucha fool

a fool

바보　

a fooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooool x(
but i'm a happie fool. one who waits so foolishlie
u.u 미쳐 )';
i'll be at genting on 19th and 20th March. that's in 12 days.

スティーブンさん見たい
スティーブンさん好きです

i cant do any work, my mind's fixated on you
i just cant focus sometimes during lessons. i get distracted thinking of you

no male affection... hais x(

2011-03-06T03:05:00.002+08:00

i spenttttt like
seven hours reading chatlogs
i liked it :\ seeing you happie
and everything you say

:\ i suppose you find your life reflected in a sense in junjo romantica :\

i'll continue with episode 2 tomorrow :\

spike

2011-03-01T03:20:00.005+08:00

i'm sorry, i'll apologise to whoever you want

i'm sorry, ped

i'm sorry, max,

i'm sorry, bel

sorry, stephanie
sorry, daryl

sorry, steven

i can't help it, i'm such a kid

i'm sorry, i was really stupid and immature
i couldnt see, i was so fucking dumb

you're so important to me

i wish you could see how i type out this post with my kiddie, autistic actions, clenched fists in front of my eyes, apologising and tearing
i'm sorry,

please, chatting with you was the happiest moments of 2009 or were, grammaticallie :'\
i'm sorry, i wish i could reacknowledged all the nuances in your words

i liked you a lot, i still do
i verie much like your ";D"s and "xP"s
i'll smile more because you said i looked pretty
i'll have less of a straight face on because you said i looked scarie
ball joint dolls are scarie ): i just looked it up and a picture scared me ;__; and it's like 4 in the morning. imagine that!

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FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF kay, it looks a bit off ):
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remember you did this? ;D

i'm sorry for being insecure

may you have the chat log and read it from 26 june 2009 onwards? please?
i don't mean for it to have any effect on you, i mean, i just wish to share with you our happie moments

call me korkorrr again, will you?
hughugggggg xP me again, will you? please?
i'm sorry, i know i'm wayyyy below you in many areas
sucha fool, laughing to myself. but i like itttttt );

alright...... it's 5.13 am
have to go to school in a while :\
wish you were here with me..............
i wish someone would help me x(
hughuggggg.
spikee

2011-02-28T17:22:00.003+08:00

hello......

i always write my problems out... if onlie you could see what i wrote x(

talk to me, will you? please?...

my chest hurtssssss

there's a little samuel living inside me......
so palpable
many at times he feels hurt
many at times "growing up" means threatening to kill him
many at times he cries

i cant do anything. i'm useless
i cant save myself
my back hurts
my stomach hurtss x( gastric, perhaps, or something else

imagining for a year and more alreadyyyy
pleaseee i beg you
to come backk

i

dont knowww
might you be studying already
but i beg of you to come backkk

please!

poor samuel x(

Three-hundred-fiftieth Post

2011-02-27T10:40:00.005+08:00

i fucking dreamt about you

it was really you: your looks, the way you spoke

it was heartwrenching, you couldnt come with me
you told me you had a girl, youfher, and you enjoy it
it sucks. fucking sucks. you said you enjoy it like you enjoy living on the edge

i'm sorry, i'm sorry, please forgive me
i will do anything

i beg you, it was hard for me to understand
i feel so apprehensive everytime
x( i crave for your company too
i suppose you're the only person i can really confide in, turn to
you wont hit on my shame, will you?

please don't leave forever
please! x'(

Samuel

tell me anything, i will do anything

Three-hundred-forty-ninth Post

2011-02-26T01:38:00.002+08:00

I saw people dance and it was sooooooo cooooool!
I know you like to dance, I wished you were here
because I know you'd really enjoy yourself here
that's true, it's no lie...... but where are you now?

honestly, fear grips me everytime i wish to talk to someone better than me
so scaredddddddddd.................. hais

thankfullie it's saturday <3 i can rest......
x) wish people would talk to me. like seriouslie.
like i will appreciate you a lot ):

God bless ~

Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-eighth Post

2011-02-13T22:48:00.004+08:00

i remember when i was 11 or 12...... i hung a sad face
epitome of kiddie hurt

you know? it's like your facial muscles just force a sad face
you can't change it no matter what.

geez, i felt hurt then. i felt excluded.
i even tried to run away and throw away the gift
but the gate was locked......

sadlie, i hung a sad face again today
geez... sucha fool
weiß nicht, was mir helfen kann. das Ende?
honestlie speaking......

goodnite x(
umm, happie memorie, helping you out of victoria theatre?...
Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-seventh Post

2011-02-06T23:39:00.008+08:00

널 볼 때마다, 가슴이 아파
생각 할 때마다, 역시 아파
마음 항상 너무 피곤해, 왜 그래?

xD

it reallie reflects my feelings...... IF you can translate it properly

learning a lil bit of katakana...... SO HARD

but i will learn it well!

chatting with a bunch of people...... doing H3 Chemistrie tutorial
did one subquestion so far >.>

:\

my maternal relatives came over today ;D we had steamboat, played with my girl cousins ^_^

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppptttttt from 6++ to 9++...... i think it was an interesting dream @@
one with the essence of insecurity, of fear
怕怕

i shall go about my business now...... < DD

君は my beautiful hangover, yeah

Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-sixth Post

2011-02-03T20:29:00.012+08:00

大家好 ^^

首先，我想祝贺大家：新年快乐，万事如意！

愿你们的学习与成绩“兔”飞猛进！

alright, time for english ^^

i cleaned a hamster cage and brushed my teeth O:

was reallie tired... but had to visit relatives
i realised i have new underwear o_o and it feels comfrotable. LOL

so first stop, we went to my aunt's place...... ^^
stupid nephew...... freaking violent.
he threw plastic bowling pins right at me. and also a compacted soccerball.
no sense of pain sia. in the end, i looked at him seriouslie and said
“走开。走开！走开！！！”
then he looked at me with an angry sad face >:[ LOL
and left me alone......

VICTORY!!!!!!

i went down for a stroll...... :\
i saw a cat...... so i played with it for a while
it had yellow eyes O:
reallie YELLOW eyes o_O

it was kinda windie...... saw a familie celebrating chinese new year......
after 30 mins or so, i went back up......
played toy cars with my nephew called lele
so cute, he ^^

afterwards, we all left...... for auntie debbie's house
had some food over there ^_^ and we even 捞鱼生 ;D there were Tung Lok staff reciting the prosperity speech while putting the seasoning and all...... you know? O:
we also went the the 4th floor...... played 1 min of foosball
the balconie was nice O: quite windie :\
geez..........................

last stop, we went to some relative's house......
it was on the 19th floor...... i think
verie, verie windie O: i wish to feel it everyday :\

there was a cute dog ;D < DDDDDD 너무 귀엽잖아요!

that's me ;D
i superpetted it @@ so cute ><
it superlicked me too xD i super-sayang-ed it tooooooo
hais

i then went down to the nearby playground...... blow wind
and observed my surroundings. thinking about things
i saw something amazing. could you see it too?

i went back up after an hour, perhaps
accidentallie got startled by the dog and nudged him >.< i forgot about him/her ):
kinda didnt care me le...... or maybe he was hurt ):
anyway...... i will miss you, doggie

dad drove us home...... and i'm home
watching 赤壁之战

wanna know what the condition of my toe is now?

here you go x)

and... truth be told,
i'm in real need of somebody right now............ hais x(

Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-fifth Post

2011-02-03T03:25:00.002+08:00

i am feeling tireddd
a little brain dead... that sort

i lay down on my bed, thinking about some things
the regrettable past and some other adjective i have forgotten

my hair is out of shape again! you know, when you sractch your scalp too much or something and it... kinda sticks out
o_O it's totallie disgusting
so sad :@

not to forget, i have to bathe and clean mah hamster cages......

on a brighter note, i sold some ice-dessert thing to wanxin yesterday during the food bazaar ^_^ yay ^^v

大家新年快乐，万事如意！

Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-fourth Post

2011-02-02T05:30:00.005+08:00

hello~

i'm reallie bored right now, so imma blog :D

listening to Thunder by Boys Like Girls right now......

which reminds me of a dude who played it on his phone's loudspeaker near the lift lobby of my flat
were you waiting for someone? (:

i have Subungual Hematoma T.T it hurt a lot
now much less. but every now and then, I feel some "bubbling" sensation in my toe
maybe it's the gradual seperating of the nail from the nailbed o_O

so imma wear sandals to school for CHINESE NEW YEAR CELEBRATIONS D:

Take time to realise. that your warmth is. crash-ing down on in...this signifies a song change in case you don't know >:D
i realised. my acne scars are like permanent. T.T
so sadddddddddddd T.T no longer flawless skin T.T
at least my complexion has gotten better ^_^ no more rocky road. LOL

did you know that ROCKY ROAD is actuallie a FOOD ITEM? :@
it tastes reallie good, it's like hardened chocolate-coated marshie-mallow @@
i tasted it when i was in Perth 4 years ago... tasted reallie good ^_^
wish they had that in Singapore...

this is one way how rocky road looks like
anyway, i miss you. i hope you would talk to me :\
관심이 있어.

off to school~

Samuel

7³

2011-01-04T23:59:00.008+08:00

another day in the hospital
A&E
29th Jan 2011
it's different this time.

i've got a toe injury :\

it hurts badly...

Subungual Hematoma. underneath my right big toe's nail...
the blood used to cover around 60%
then it become 80%
for some reason, it's covering 85% now......

i don't like this. there's a method called trephining. to drain the blood, hence relieving the pressure and therefore the pain

x(

but anyway, let us enjoy music ;D
it has been hurting excruciatingly nonstop since 3pm... :'(
Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-second Post: 생일 축하합니다 ;D

2011-01-04T00:10:00.004+08:00

hi guys~

first off, thank you everyone who came over to have my birthday dinner with me and to my house <:
thank you sarah, sendi, pim, ped, wayap and handsome tomyum <3
_{and sorrie too @@ i have a bad feeling everyone is gonna be in trouble...... @@}

thank my relatives for coming over for dinner too
thank grace for her presence
and my own familie
;D

i'm 18 ;D milestone ;D

and i'm busy thanking everyone for their birthday wishes on facebook... LOL

so beat :\
그렇지만, 감사합니다, 여러분 ;D

rak thoe all <3

Samuel

Three-hundred-forty-first Post

2011-01-02T07:40:00.002+08:00

Harro~

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY CHUANG :B :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

LOL

i'm going to come up with my new year's resolution

HEEEEEEEEEEHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :B

1. I am going to clear my holiday homework by this saturday T.T

2. ..............................................................

LOLLLLLLLLLLL I HAVE NOU IDEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

but i did dream that i conversed in korean with two korean kids o_O
COOOOOOOOL MANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN HAHAHA
"몇 살이에요?" LOL :D
"기분이 어때요?"
HAHAHA THAT'S ALL I'M GONNA SAYYYYY :P

imma come up with a proper list next time so stay tune < D

Samuel

Happy New Year 2011 :D

2011-01-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

Happie New Year guys :D

새해 복 많이 받으세요!

Glückliches Neujahr :D

Time for celebrations! ;D and homework-doing. LOL

Three-hundred-thirty-ninth Post

2010-12-31T18:10:00.010+08:00

alejandro alejandro~
xD

that's what i'm listening to RIGHT NOW on the 987TOP100 COUNTDOWN :D
number 39 song le... ;D so nice < D

ALEJANDRO ALEJANDRO
ALE ALEJANDRO ALE ALEJANDRO~

there are 6 songs from justin bieber
5 songs from taylor swift, ladie gaga and KE$HA EACH :@ OMGGGGG

my eyes itch @@ it saaaaaaaaaacs

and doing my GP homework............ )';

using my makeshift headphones to tune in to 987fm on my phone...... xD

have heard manie great songs @@ RAWRRRRRRRR
like FORGET YOU by Cee Lo Green
BODY LANGUAGE by Jesse McCartney :@

i even cleaned my keyboard ^^ dismantled every single key and washed and dried them and fixed them back......

geez, Meet Me Halfway is reallie a weird song o_O number 38 >:
LOL

< D

Samuel

WOOOOOOO I HAVE SUCCESSFULLIE TUNED IN TO 10 hours of 987top100 :D how inspiring :D
though i dozed off a little from top 30 to top 20 >: missing some great songs like Don't Stop Believing by Glee and some song from Flo Rida...... LOL
NUMBER THREE SONG IS Baby by Justin Bieber :D
NUMBER TWO SONG IS Bad Romance by Lady Gaga

AND THE NUMBER ONE

SONG IN SINGAPORE OF

2010 IS...........

CALIFORNIA GURLS :DDDDDDDDDD by Katy Perry featuring Snoop Dogg :D

HOOOOOOOOOORAYYYYY :D though i've never heard/liked the song before. LOL

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :DDDDDDDDD

Samuel -- 10.09 PM

Three-hundred-thirty-eighth Post

2010-12-26T08:04:00.003+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy x)

i've been having the hots. LOL

omjeeeeeeeeeeshhhh i have a fetish @@

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR TnT

having roti prata pangs >:

i sooooooooooooooo love the wind and the cold
so love genting

wish i can draw here like msn
LOL

Das Leben geht weiter

Samuel

Three-hundred-thirty-seventh Post

2010-12-25T02:47:00.002+08:00

Merrie Christmas ^_^

圣诞节快了！:D

Frohe Weihnachten! =D

메리 크리스마스 ;D

Day of joy! ;D
God bless everyone <3

Samuel here's wishing you a merrie christmas, momo ;D

Three-hundred-thirty-sixth Post

2010-12-23T07:36:00.002+08:00

i feel like frollo ):

sorrie janus. i should not have been so fuckedddddddddddddddddd

i think i have bipolar disorder. peeceosheet

gotta hate life.....................

my bodie aches

i dont likeeeeee issues and ideas ):

i am allergic to peanut ):

Three-hundred-thirty-fifth Post

2010-12-10T12:17:00.005+08:00

Hi. I am a noob.

I take screenshots of things as memory.

I feel sad a lot.

I cry a lot for my age.

My thinking is in limbo.

Limbo is the place between heaven and hell. I think.
Like a crossroad >.>

I feel terrible.

I only have myself to cuddle with x(
to comfort
to care for

I only have my bolsterrr

hais

Samuel

Three-hundred-thirty-fourth Post

2010-11-30T10:59:00.004+08:00

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy,

what's a man without his code? a deak. LOL

you know, i strahguhl a lot with keeping my mouth shut
because behind those lips lies a vorpal tongue
a vorpal tongue that hurts and kills in other sense

was justing reading grammar articles on "lie" and "lay"
rather confusing :s

BUT I AM SMARTER AND MORE SUPERIOR NOW HAHAHA

holidays... 4 more weeks to go x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-thirty-third Post

2010-11-17T23:55:00.006+08:00

Hey~ x)

Haven't blogged for ages......

well... M who liked D told me
that S has someone le
someone who has been with him all along
from young till now. from the time they sat together and it thundered
and they shared a fraternal bond...
someone called A......

i went walking for 2 hours. just reached home like less than 10 minutes ago
i walked from home to punggol park
and walked the serangoon park connector (SPC)
and i walked...... till tampines road
and turned right
and continued to the junction where hougang ave 2 and 3 split
i wanted to go to avenue 1......
but i made a right turn. i missed it
hais

as i walked, i looked at buildings
i wished i could stay in those with momo
because the crux is to be with him wherever

but if M was telling the truth, it means S really is in good hands
and perhaps my perpetual worry of whether S is doing well is......

then again, i'm envious :'\
envious......

Das Leben ist wie so :'(

All I can only do is
to think
and to imagine............ ...... ... .

Samuel

Three-hundred-thirty-second Post

2010-07-24T16:24:00.007+08:00

it hurts so much to think that what i only have of you left are thoughts of you, a scan of your letter and our chatlogs
i can't move on. i don't want to move on x(

i begged someone to get your pristine e-mail address off the blacklist of her blogshop because you didn't eventually buy some lenses

I DONT KNOW. I WAS SO BROKEN. MY LIFE NEVER SEEMED TO HAVE HOPE
my throat's choking in pain x(
i'll do anything. i'll be your slave or dog.
Please reappear......
14 days ago. I know you are still around but i really wish you would talk to me
i wouldnt mean to be rude or stupid, incorrigible or a waste of your time
i wouldnt mean to hurt you or do anything bad
it must have been a fucking shame for you

i dreamt about you. it's the best dream ever.
i dreamt i was an l4d special infected with a group of fellow special infected at a hotel somewhere in the world.
we moved around the corridors covertly...... we tried to eat people
i went to a splendid room with three bejeweled bathtubs and we wanted to bathe but there's no water. we moved around some more and suddenly one of us went down to eat people. it alerted the crowd and they were after us. we tried to run and i tried to kill some by pouncing on them but it was of no use

i was at some grand hotel where there was a buffet...... it was all-you-can-eat
and must have been some food hotel because the food items were of many different cuisines.
i cannot remember exactly what happened but i had a feeling you were around
of all places in the world you travel, you were right here in the same building
i saw huncheng that molester. you must have known him...... i looked around for you and finally i saw you.
it had to be you. it was such a stark resemblence -- your looks, your height, your niceness...... you were with huncheng but you stuck with me. thank God
you went onto me and started to do what the green-haired guy did @@
it felt so good...... even in the dream, the feeling felt so real @@
i saw everything............ we really loved each other

i saw your abs and i remembered steph saying she can't stop looking at your abs so i asked while touching them
"how did you get your abs?" xD
"it's normal de......"
"then mine also normal de" xP

you followed me...... we were at the area near hougang mrt station. i suggested you came home with me because it was near serangoon where you must have stayed
it was near chompchomp which was a walkable distance away, from serangoon that is
you agreed...... we're finally gonna live together (;

we were walking around some hdb flats...... those white colour near hougang mall de. then got someone suddenlie talk to you O: he spoke japanese and u talked to him in japanese. i was so amazed by you xD

we were at bishan/serangoon mrt station...... we saw pim and sarah and co. on the train
grace and co. waved to them but did not exit the gate
they were trapped between the train and the glass door...... i tried to pry the gates open. i succeeded but it was enforced with electromagnets......

they were rescued. but you suddenly disappeared.
i went to look for you around stations...... but to no avail
my perception turned 3rd-person and my vision became warp

i have lost you x(

i woke up and i wanted to sleep again to look for you but chances are i will never see you again

It hurts so much
You've become a part of me
Please, help me alleviate this pain. Please!
do whatever. i promise you i will not kill myself. Please!
Do whatever. I promise you i will not hurt myself. I promise you.
I Promise you. I promise you I will not hurt myself.
Do anything but ignore me, please!
Could you give me a chance? I never hated you. I'm sorry.
I will be a good boy like I should be
I can't stand the surge of the thought that it's all impossible
Let me cry in front of you, in your arms. I wanna do that

I love you, I love you. I pray you are doing well in life.
You'll always be in my thoughts. constantly. hughug x(

25072010152700

_{What is/was in my mind......

i'm aloof when the situation calls for attention
live for the dreams. unmaterialised thoughts.

the deadliness of words. should i kill people with words......
or be a supposedly nice person and just bear with it

do i reallie have asperger? )';

punishment

i'm not getting things right

i know i've been dragging time on my part
but your total insensitivity and lack of empathy just make me want to give up

what's more important, orchard central or my well-being?

why should i smile... it's not for anyone

lol, no one understands.

i know. should i just go out with someone i dont know very well
and expose all my hidden depression. someone who is younger than me
expecting that he would understand when he wont because he has problems of his own?
should i call for help hoping she would understand and protect me holistically
so that i would feel safe from the start to the end
hoping she would not pressure me

you know what love is
it's an unconditional bond.
it is forgiving.
it is being honest and truthful

i know for sure someone has it
x)

Samuel}

Three-hundred-thirty-first Post

2010-07-21T20:59:00.006+08:00

ahnraspundseef deek een de fem
deak. LOL

keedeeng la

enneewei, tudei het mai A-level H1 Chinese Listening Comprehension exam x__x
which was reallie tuff >:

soh hurd...... ai soh wunt en A fur mai H1 Chinese ):

neewei, tudei also het mai german comprehension test......
ich finde ihn okay. machbar. o_o

ahm hohm nau

baibai ;D

Samuel

Three-hundred-thirtieth Post

2010-07-16T22:51:00.002+08:00

ich sollte nicht

feel like just resting......

keep your ghost with me always )';
always inside me
ti penso sempre

ha ha ha

Samuel

Three-hundred-twenty-ninth Post

2010-07-14T00:50:00.004+08:00

i dont know but you guys prollie dont know what it means to me
how much it means to me

stupid samuel )';

it's my fault. i shouldnt have perpetrated
it's for my stupid thoughts

then again, i do receive shocks now and then...... shocks that surge feelings of sadness
nonchalance plagued me recentlie. perhaps not yet 24 hours

i wish i should just fixate my thoughts on you

Samuel

Three-hundred-twenty-eighth Post

2010-07-13T01:17:00.003+08:00

hah~

looks like i've been impressing
:\ maybe i shouldn't have

.....................................................................................

definitelie
once, a thought shocked me throughout
sadness surged like electricitie
.....................................................................................

)'; Anything for you.

Samuel

Three-hundred-twenty-seventh Post

2010-07-11T21:26:00.003+08:00

thinking about death
about an empty bed
an empty room
empty space

.....................................................................................

it's all changed. no more. no more......
no longer with us
no longer laughing with us
no longer cooking with love
no longer anticipating when we collect our results
no longer smiling when we have dinner x(
no longer singing happy birthday
no longer speaking wisdom......

I told Him that all I ever wanted was that they get to have grandchildren before they leave

es bricht mein Herz

Samuel

Three-hundred-twenty-sixth Post

2010-07-08T22:31:00.006+08:00

hi~ today i had my 'A' level H1 Chinese Oral exams! :D
it sarked my ____________________________ butt
anyway, the teacher kinda resembled 卓老师
好想念小学时的华文课……

然后呢，今天的体育课教的是救生！好好玩哦！

太好玩了 :D

i wonder what people would say if i answered their "why?" questions about something DEPRESSING
maybe for the sake of asking o_O 我不晓得

T__________T

还有，我想要说。incorrigible.
华文翻译也就死性不改。

的确的，这一代的青少年好像出了一些问题。
有的人待人虚伪，表里不一
有的人够瞎眼，沉浸在幼稚、无意义的思想中
我真感到无奈。你们到底几时会觉悟到、几时才会从愚蠢虚拟的梦中醒过来？
请睁大眼睛看看真相，张开耳朵听听有经验人士的劝告，把无知浅薄的心态抛到九霄云外！

i feel verie :s typing this LOL

头疼头疼……也许我应该袖手旁观，让你们自生自灭。
听懂吗？

Samuel

Three-hundred-twenty-fifth Post

2010-07-06T00:33:00.007+08:00

hello~

yesterday (5 Julie 2010), i woke up at 1045 hours
i was supposed to meet lumi, chinghan and peisheng at hougang plaza at 1030 >: coz i'm supposed to join them for pool >:
but i lazed around sommore till 11pm then left the house =x

so i took 101 to hougang mrt there... it costed 30¢

and i think the new public transportation fare sucks. -__________-
it got cheaper for short distances. but long distances...........................

anyway, i walked to hougang plaza there and entered the pool area >: how i wish it was a swimming pool LOL
i saw them ;D then watched peisheng and lumi showdown...... and lumi lost >:
:X actuallie the game was forfeited coz the VIP wanted to play liao

so first chinghan and i teamed up against the two newbies :B
and who won? and who was the MVP? "most valuable player"
lalalalalala~

mr chinghan <:
afterwards, i teamed up against lumi >: poor lumi, noone taught him how to play >:
>: what friends hor. kidding =x

then i teamed up against peisheng >: and WE WON MUAHAHAHAHA XDDDDDD
almost lost sia, but i turned the tables and won ;D

then peisheng wanted to 1v1 me <:
we played a while then decided to play next time ~~coz chinghan and lumi screwed up the game >:~~ kidding =x
so lumi and i chatted while the two of them played~ lalala

then we went to pay for the table usage. i had to pay >:

we went to hougang mall kopitiam to eat ;D i topped up lumi's kopitiam card o_o i inserted $2 but $3 was topped up O.O LOL
i then inserted another $2 note but then onlie topped up $2 >:
nevertheless, earned 1 dollar =x
so i managed to pay 20¢ less for my Singapore Laksa o_O
while lumi earned $1.20 in value in his kopitiam card ;D

peisheng: come gimme a kiss *mua*
lumi: i kissed him and this was what happened to me *paralysed*
LOL

what nice, magenta lips! LOL

this is the colour of magenta. middle-click the pic and compare >:

afterwards, we went to ntuc at b1 to buy some stuff.
chinghan bought bread. LOL

we went to hougang bus interchange O: and chinghan, to my pleasant surprise, said "bye kor"
or did i hear wronglie >: but WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE LOL

so i wanted to send lumi off first >: but then bus 27 came and the other two were off >: so i couldnt send them off after i sent lumi off >:

i walked home afterwards

thanks for the day =x

Samuel

p.s. HAPPIE BIRTHDAY MR CASPER :B i want kasper icecream >:today

Three-hundred-twenty-fourth Post

2010-07-04T23:54:00.010+08:00

hello~

first and foremost, HAPPIE BIRTHDAY FATHER :D
50 years old le...... half a centurie gone ;___;
生日快乐！
생일 축하합니다!
selamat hari jadi! ;D

33 more years to 50. LOL
by then, he mite not be around anymore );

today, i went out to meet pim, nai and alex at jcube ;D
long time no see them le...... ;D
helped pim play arena for four rounds...... then out >:
xD and she said my head looked like mushroom ;___; sobsob ;___;
>':

chatted with paopaocha jiejie awhile <:
and my xmg was there ;D < DDDD hes so cute as ever @@

soon, joshua reached jcube
and we left soonafter for dinner

he brought me to some thai restaurant...... had seafood fried rice i think o_o
he brought me around to check out that ulu mall...... xD
i also had thai milk tea. < DDDDDDD

afterwards, we decided to go to orchard central to check it out......
so i went back to jcube to sayang xmg >: as in like mess up his hair xD
and then bade farewell to ms paopaocha <:

i saw this at the busstop at dhoby ghaut. LOL
then joshua and i walked to orchard central......
原来 that is orchard central...... the place my classmates and i went to have free ben and jerrie's icecream :@
yumyum @@

he brought me to the basement... B2
and then we checked out the place. this mall is so cool >: the design is so damn cool. soooooooo damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL @@ it's like we're in a mall in another countrie. singapore de mall where got this kind of feeling >:

we took the lift up to the 2nd highest lvl, from b2 ;D to lvl 11
xD

we then took a secret passage to lvl 12...... my goodness. what scenerie......
could see the casino from here. could see *scape youth park from here
cars looked reallie toyish...... people looked reallie tinie xD
tall, illuminated buildings. and condos......
my G, what strong wind x) i would have loved to be there for a long time

i pointed at some of the buildings and asked, "where would you like us to stay together in future?"
i thought you would have been happie with me up here
what nice scenerie...... and the breeze x)
remember to always have contact...... even if it's your leg touching mine
we'll have contact )'; my seksie friend
my dearest friend
i thought of checking into a hotel with you )'; i wished to spend time with you
i recollected and remembered the day i worried so much for you
so worried...... i never felt so worried in my whole life )';
and i cared for you so much i was so foolish to be so rash and stupid
i never hated you
i just wanted you to feel bad, that's all......
becoz i cared so much for you but i'm sorrie you would have to relive it )';
i never hated you )x
i wish you were here. standing here with me, enjoying the breeze, each other's presence and affection )';
i told myself i would marrie you )'x

if onlie you were here )';...........................................................

i wish we would still maintain contact................................
i wish you'd never do all those things again. no more dancing. please )x i beg of you

at around 10.55pm, we decided to leave the breezie rooftop for home
took the train from somerset to buangkok and father drove me home......
just in time for the celebration xD

Happie birthday to you,
happie birthday to you~
happie birthday to faaaaaaatherrrrrrrrrr
happie birthday to you ;D

played starcraft with brother. kinda boring with the noob computer players >: hope starcraft II will be good! it's coming out late this month ;D

and happie independence day americans and co.!

Samuel here's wishing you again a good and happie life x)

Three-hundred-twenty-third Post

2010-07-03T23:02:00.006+08:00

hi~

just reached home xP

today, grace, yaxian, grace's friend (angelea), sammel and i went to PANDA'S HOUSE :B
he's so nice you know

blur picture of grace, angelea and yaxian =x

nice face =x
i taught the girls how to play poker :B and yaxian totallie owned larhs......
why so pro?

panda also treated us macdonalds
costed quite a bomb >: BUT I TELL YOU, IT'S LECKER
which means DELICIOUS in german =x

had macflurrie, apple pie, fries, iced milo...... yumyum

totallie delicious. THANK YOU PANDA

we played some audi.................. (so boring =x)
played beatupmania on his desktop O.O
fun sia :B
also tried 8k 12pt......... it's a bit hard >:

saw his cute little sister :B 너무 可愛いね！
played with her awhile =x boo!

at around 8++, we went out to makan
had a $5 plate of fried hokkien mee @@
and some carrot cake :B

father sent pirates home too! he came at dunnoe what time...... maybe 5+ or 6+ o_o

AND NOW WE ARE BACK :B I LOVE YOU ALL < DD

Samuel and i wanna play strip poker >:

Three-hundred-twenty-second Post

2010-07-02T23:06:00.004+08:00

today, i woke up at 9.30 am
and i quicklie changed into a pair of jeans and my german shirt @@

took 101 to hougang mrt and then took the train to stadium........
my G, what a long wait for public transport

reached there at 10.30 am, same time as a few of them O.O
yea, so we all went to Kallang Leisure Park for our GEMS :D
GEMS is like some class activity where we all learn to do something new
like ice-skating

MY G WE ARE GOING TO KALLING ICE-SKATING RINK @@
HAHAHAHAHAHA

my G, it was so fun! SO FUN RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
it was my second time ice-skating......
and THIS time, i could skate ;D
i could like skate quicklie....................... muahahaha

i kinda taught mr hongkee how to iceskate :s left-right-left-right xD

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ fell down a few times.
but the real injuries are the freaking blisters
and abrasions
from the freaking small ice-skates
my G, the pain
i have 8 wounds -__________- 4 giant blisters filled with whatever liquid..........
and then 4 patches of exposed flesh
so painful ;___;

we all had fun! i ice-skated till tired @@ dehydrated
and was reallie hungrie );

we skated for two hours...... my G, so fun *-*

afterwards, we went to pastamania on the ground floor for lunch :B yumyum ;D
YUMMMMMYUMMMMMMM ;D
had lots of laughs
and some pasta @@ my hurting stomach )';

after eating, we went to the arcade! we played the basketball game.......
and the mini version. xunda could just slamdunk sia LOL!

we all also played daytona! LOLOL
there was mayhem............................... it was so hilarious xD
seeing meiqi being frantic about the machine LOL
totallie. farnie.....................................................................

soon, we managed to have a 6-people race :s
i came in 2nd! GRRRRRRRRRRR ;___;

then, we all decided to go home ;D
we all dispersed. while inez, chyan wen, hong kee, nicholas sim, daniel, xunda and i went to take the mrt home
it was raining >: then had a few puddles of dirtie water >:
and inez ran and fell down badlie >;

i rode on the circle line till marymount when everyone had gone off
then rode back to serangoon and took 101 home :s

xDD

tadah~

sammel is now at my house. he wanted to play www.hotel626.com with me >: so scarie ;___;

Samuel

Three-hundred-twenty-first Post

2010-07-01T22:58:00.003+08:00

today was the last day of block tests x)

screwed up chemistrie badlie...... )';
gonna disappoint ms chua greatlie :\

for chinese............................ i thought it was doable :\
................................................. x)

after chinese, we all went to meiqi's house......................

Oh My God

it's the biggest house i've ever seen

原来新闻所说的一位新传媒演员所居住的地方就是这里？世界好奇妙啊……
真是无法相信

anyway, i've finallie seen a real toilet with glass walls
totallie transparent
totallie.........................
so if you're bathing, better lock the room door otherwise any barging stephanie can totallie intrude on your privacie........................................

x) wouldn't you be damn seksie

anyway, we totallie had fun at her house
there were people playing pool, people playing mahjong with this totallie awesome automated table which arranges the tiles nicelie o_O
so cool la............
first time see

also first time i see such a ___________________ house
first time i played poker, too!
SO FUN :B NEXT TIME CAN PLAY STRIP POKER LE :B

I WON LIKE A LOT OF CHIPS :D YAY

we had canadian pizza afterwards............... yumyum
watched a bit of the simpsons and then familie guy
.......... okay la.
totallie just chillllllllllllllled after block tests
what a damn nice house ):

meiqi walked us to the nearby busstop...... there, churnhoe and i took a cab to eunos o_o
i took thr mrt to serangoon then took 101 home................... oh, so tired

i'm home x)

there was yummie japanese food. YUMYUM LARHS
and then going to have some soup ^^

ciao~ tmr is GEMS :D
which is some class outing, to kallang ice-skating rink!
Samuel

Three-hundred-twentieth Post

2010-06-28T19:44:00.010+08:00

you kenot
you kenot imagine the pain i'm going through.
they call it hyperreflexia i wonder if that's what i have
then again, you kenot imagine the contempt i have
bad, isn't it

anyway, it's exam week
they call it BLOCK TESTS here
what a term o_O it's mid-year exams lor. or just exams. ~.~

maybe it's some spastic workup again. happens now and then it seems o_O

for the record, it's the second time you said i look uglie
the first time you said otherwise after a while
i wish there is some magical palm that will slap away the impulsiveness

maybe it reallie is information overload. my head WRECKSTHROBSTHUMPSHURTS
anyway, it was GP paper today. didnt finish my paper 1
but it's reallie okay. gotta improve

i don't know why but i can't wait to see people bound for FAILURE
thanks for the LAWL :D SERVES YOU RIGHT
the kiddie terms known as "stead" and "patch" totallie irk me
make me feel like puking
definitely. serves you right

maybe my mind is severelie contaminated, that's why it hurts like mad
defiled
corrupted
.....................................................................................

_{but death seems so attractive )';}

Samuel

Three-hundred-nineteenth Post

2010-06-26T19:18:00.004+08:00

i like punishment. i embrace what i deserve
days of it. maybe weeks of it......

i wish things would culminate and then i would go back to my old self of self-mutilation
i could then break down and cry
and live in despair. maybe for a while now
and feel sad and hurt because i miss it
it activates what i do best. to feel :\

it sucks badlie. i so want to be hurt
hurt me, please

.....................................................................................

headache. like a real one. my head feels cramped. ~.~
maybe information overload. @@ it strains and hurts

)'; Zeit vergeht

cardiac arrest

ha ha

hammer me down and pick me up and stroke me on the head and push me away and kick me and pick me up and i will accept it and i don't mind how many times you hit me
as long as in the end, you'll want me......
i will be your ______ dog, willing to undergo any form of stress
as long as in the end, i had a little place in your heart
which you will treasure. and you would think of me now and then
and wish that i would see you again
some day............
the invoked sadness. the invoked tears

ha
Samuel

Three-hundred-eighteenth Post

2010-06-20T20:39:00.011+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ouBJTv_OqJA
weeeeeeeeeee~ i look so shuai x)

LOL. that's what you get when you sleep long long~

anyway, starting on my homework lerhs. been thinking about momo )';

心疼。
眼泪都流了
today is father's day orh. didnt go church

btw, NICE SONG RITE? :B

oh yea~

html sucks

anyway, the reason i am typing in breaks is because i want you to read my blog more slowly ):

what a dumb dumb attempt hor )x

du du du dudu dudu du du~du~du~du du du du dudu dudu du du du dudu du~

;D

listening to myself sing on karaokeparty.com is so @@ making my skin paraesthesiac >:

anyway, happie father's day all fathers out there ^^

happie father's day, papaya :\

내 사랑, 보고 싶고 사랑해요.

Samuel and thanks pirates for staying with me ^^

Three-hundred-seventeenth Post

2010-06-19T09:48:00.003+08:00

where to find a better one sia
impossible lor. you're the one and onlie
..........................................................................................

mein Herz tut weh. sehr weh.
ich hoffe immer, dass du eines Tages zurückkommen wirst. immer
ich denke an dich immer

널 생각해

hughug x(

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixteenth Post

2010-06-14T21:25:00.010+08:00

harlow ~

today was a reallie unluckie day ): public transport to orchard took like ages
then when i was at the arcade at vivocitie and just jumped, my loose pants............................... some freaking auntie saw it <.<
"it" as in saw the action <.<
at least the wait for the bus back home wasnt long o_O
but i almost overslept -______- totallie tired

went out with sarah and ped and samantha today! ;D

met up with them at ION orchard. had a little food thr :B yummeh okay! @@
동대문......
and the Red Pig. i think o_o

walked around ION... went to some bookstore named Prologue o_O
prologue means an introductory speech... or the likes NOT INTRODUCTIONARIE!
saw manie books xD a large map of manila
we went upstairs where the stationeries are located
walked around :B WE SAW A FREAKING PEN THAT COSTS 853 DOLLARS. WALAOOOOOO
two of these can buy a laptop le lor :@

speaking of which, i went to the pcfair ytd o_O saw my brother, peisheng and lumi :D
totallie walked till my limbs hurt ;___;
saw lots of stuff...... haha, this time dont reallie need anything liao

was extremelie hungrie :@ stomach almost died
had kfc at marina bay
then mom and i took the mrt to hougang then we walked home~ yea~

anyway, we walked around and slacked around at ION :B finallie got a drink at The Marketplace o_O the 7up lemon was reallie cold @@

we decided to go to vivocitie :D so we went...... haha
bleh. the wading pool sucks badlie now. so rockie and painful <.<
went to daiso to walk around~ and went to the arcade to take neoprint
WHICH WAS SO FREAKING FARNIE LOLOLOL XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

slacked around at the deck near brotzeit~ haha
then we decided to go home ^^ the national geographic place sucks and stinks ;eeks
played wwe on ped's psp. xD took at bus home afterwards

so...... seeya~

Samuel

Three-hundred-fifteenth Post: ISOOUTING June 2010

2010-06-10T23:35:00.006+08:00

Hi~
we're just back

today was isoouting june 2010! :D

Those who went: aloy, sarah, samantha, sendi, pirates, ped, jasmine, chuang, ya xian, grace and i :D

ELEVEN PEOPLE! sorrie pim ;___;

i woke up at 11+, pirates was alreadie making the sandwiches

soonafter, grace went down to meet her friend yaxian
i switched on my computer to blablabla......

at 12++++, we all took father's car to bedok mrt station =x
looks like we were the earliest........ reached at 1pm+ (yaxian, pirates, grace and i)
we waited awhile...... sendi came! ;D
with jasmine! O_O maybe they took the same train O.O
then chuang came!
WE WAITED AND THEN ALOY, SARAH AND SAMANTHA CAME :DDDDDDDDDD
it was around 2 le......
then while waiting for the VIP, we played OLD MAID at the station =x
played two rounds and then 1 round of uno......
wah, had to draw 16 TnT who said cannot reverse?! TnT

ANYWAY, SOON THE VIP, LEE

YONG TECK came :D

AND THEN WE'RE OFF TO EAST COAST PARK :D

we went to the interchange and boarded bus 16...... i think
joked a lot on the bus =x so fun ;D
then we alighted at marina terrace road o_O
walked to the underpass...... ^^
and walked thru underpass o_O
and then WE FINALLIE REACHED EAST COAST PARK :D

we walked about...... and then decided to picnic at the breakwater :B
but it was wet >: so we picnic at the nearby table

we had grace's cheesecake, ped's SOGGIE NUGGETS =x
pirate's and my sandwiches, chuang's sandwiches...... omg,

sendi went to get some ice...... ;D < DDD
and then he went to get a mat :B
so eventuallie, we used the mat on the breakwater ;D
so windie~ ~.~ i love it.
;D the rest of them went to SKATE! while jas, pirates, ped and i remained at the breakwater, eating egg mayo sandwiches that sendi brought after the rest went off for some time
YUMYUM :B we're looking at what other people were doing...... some kids climbing up the breakwater -__-
there was some uncle fishing LOL

jas was playing with grace's camera :B took manie pictures
and then she almost stepped on some fish in a puddle O_O LOLOL SCARED ME TOO
grace and yaxian came back :B
we asked the uncle if the fish belonged to him......
yea, it was. he threw it back into the sea >: LOLOL

today was the first time i ROLLERSKATED :D LOLOLOL
SO hard to skate TnT but i got the hang of it soon...... i think
fell down a few times :B heng got friends 扶 me < DDDDDD i love you
thanks sendi for ur skates :B

when we were returning to the breakwaters, i was going down the slope and then ped PULLED ME. BECOZ OF INERTIA, I WENT FORWARD AND THEN FELL BACKWARDs :@

PAK ON MY BACK :@

TnT cant grow taller le.

then we slacked a lot on the breakwater :B blowing wind and joking and taking pictures ;D

nite time le...... :B hours spent over there < DDD

sarah went home first ;D THANKS FOR COMING
then aloy and samantha went home ;D THANKS FOR COMING TOO

then rest of us packed up and cleaned up everything and went to macdonalds to slack a while =x

then we wanted to go home le, so walk walk trying to find the underpass...... then walked wrong way :@
so we walked back...... then i remembered it's near the skate park :B so we went there.
and then we met CUTE KITTENS
SO CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

we spent like 10mins there playing with them ;D got one grey with black stripes de. then got one blackie-grey kitten ;D

then we walked back to the bus stop =x
sendi took 13 while the rest of us took 16 < DDD

ped gave me a massage on the bus
we were looking at the scenerie ;D

we all alighted at dhoby ghaut while pirates stayed on the bus. BYE PIRATES ;D
chuang left for the red line. BYE CHUANG ;D

then the rest of us went to jcube to see see o_o saw alex there ;eeks
then saw paopaocha :B

sat there and slacked a bit then we went off

we took the purple line :B grace and i alighted at serangoon while ped and jasmine continued...... BYE JAS AND PED ;D

took 101 home................................ so damn tired slept on the bus ;___;

LALALA I'm HOME :B BYEBYE < DDDDDD

and hope yaxian is fine

wish to have another outing ;D MORE MUST COME OKAY :D

Samuel

Three-hundred-fourteenth Post: 朋友的洗礼

2010-05-29T23:24:00.006+08:00

Firstly, CONGRATULATIONS TO DENIS ANG FOR BEING BAPTISED :D
Stay strong in the faith!

Nine people believe that Jesus Christ is their Lord and Saviour.
Nine people declared in front of their friends and family that they would follow Him all days of their lives.

Denis' getting baptised!
they were totallie submerged in water laying back into the water :s

This is how the pool looks like...... i thought it was like a swimming pool :s

In the mean time, i spent my time with denis' friend called lucas
who looked like 卢卡斯 LOL!
shuai ge.

we ate some buffet :B
had lemonade i think
sour :s

we went up for service at around 7.10 pm
sat beside 卢卡斯
hehehe............

as always, service's emotive and also entertaining.
reallie nice x)

the service ended at around 9++......
then 卢卡斯 and someone was sitting outside
syahir korkor hit me with a pen :@
long time no see him le. he said his BMT had just ended :B freeee! ;D

saw joshua simon too
he told me he's prettie well-known now

anyway, we left Covenant Evangelical Free Church soon after
took 901 ^^
sat beside joshua simon while he guessed where i stayed :s what a poor guesser

we alighted at woodlands regional bus interchange. 卢卡斯 left O:
then joshua simon waited for me to board my 161 home

totallie slacked on the bus.................................... yea

reached home. felt crankie <.<

why do i have to tell her to switch off the computer.
why do you ask if i had heard the sermon -___-

i seriouslie do not appreciate. this type of questions.

feeling bad as soon as i got home alreadie.

anyway, i walked to CEFC (pronounced as "sef-see") using this map ^^

and also, i spent hours yesterday watching ZATCH BELL on youtube :B
i miss zatch bell < DDDD
watched from episode 10 to 30 ^^ coz i watched the first ten episodes before o_O

;D

also, played ijji LUNIA with ped ;D till like 5 am @@
LOLOLOL, so fun :B even he concurred!

lastlie, i had some lay's salt and vinegar-flavoured potato chips.
breathing in the chips through your nostrils feels weird o_O like it can solve blocked nose problems :B

seeya~ x)

Samuel

Three-hundred-thirteenth Post

2010-05-28T04:00:00.010+08:00

woooooooooooo i'm all stickie and sweatie ;)
LOL :B

just reached home...... cycled my butt off ~.~

met up with ped at buangkok...... i cycled there while he took the mrt :B
he brought along the bicycle pump in a large plastic bag o_O so unnecessarie!

:B we met at 11 pm ++
then we decided to have FRIED HOKKIEN MEE < DDDD yum yum ^^

i paid for the food while he paid for the drinks :B so nice hor me...... and him =x

after eating, we went to the nearby playground......
first i brought ivan there,
then chong yee
then pirates
now ped! :D
but it wasnt verie windie and cooling...... hot and stuffie :s
and there were people sitting at the Seat :@
so we waited a while...... then they left
then we took over :B

i asked him about his exams............
slacked there for quite some time :B

afterwards, we went to the supermarket o_O fairprice, i think
and HEY, "afterwards" is a word that you type with onlie ur left hand! :D

WE BOUGHT NOTHING AND THEN WE WENT TO PUMP MY BICYCLE WHEEL
and then we travelled home ^^ my home.

browsed through audi...... then gunz :s
then facebook :s and let ped watch some AVGN and he laughed a lot :B

then we decided to go back! freaking tired ;___; and it was like...... 2.30 am o_O
so we went back to sengkang...... omG, so tiring

before we went up, we decided to go to the nearby playground to play the spinning see-saw thing o_O but there was a GROUP of bois around -___- can't believe there are people at my favourite spots. maybe they are coming to their senses :s
anyway, izzen the moon tonite big and round and bright? x)
so we slacked around ~.~ then we went up.
ped gave me some pepsi :B yum yum
but my teeth...... like weakened like MAD

anyway, i cycled home :B damn tiring ;____;

and am blogging ;D

anyway, CONGRATULATIONS TO ~ISOLATION~ for EXPANDING TO BLACK PEARL :D
black pearl is the house that can hold 71 people :B but actuallie is 70
hooray :D WELL DONE ISOBABES < DDD
I LOVE YOU ALL XD

think i'm going to bathe now :s bye~

Samuel

Three-hundred-twelfth Post

2010-05-27T01:53:00.003+08:00

omG you canNOT believe my DILIGENCE
although you cant see it coz it's rather faint :s

anyway, today's the last day of term 2 ;D i've made it~ @@

and i am freaking tired now. my eyebags are surfacingggg ;___; :@

):

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

HI I'm BACK FROM SCHOOL :D It's 5.37 pm now :D

SCHOOL IS OVER YAYYYYYY HOLIDAY TIME :DDDDDDDDD

omG you canNOT imagine how lethargic i am TnT

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY :D TIME TO GAME TILL MY ARSE BURST

Samuel

Three-hundred-eleventh Post

2010-05-24T01:03:00.004+08:00

ello~

;D

@@ seksehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

doing homework now. planning to sleep at 3++ or 4++ since i've slept for HOURS compounded yesterday.

full of imagination

tired boi

:'\

Samuel

Three-hundred-tenth Post

2010-05-19T04:50:00.004+08:00

yumyum eating carl's junior ^^
it was supposed to be my dinner but :\ too tireddddd

what flavour? dont tell you xP

feeling reallie tired

homework: PHP, CHT4, CLJB LOL
what a noob

feeling sickkkkkkk )';

hate tomatoes :@ but love them in restaurant citie

arghs my freaking bodie is plagued with eczemaaaaaaa
like scales on a reptile -- ARMOURED ALL OVER
there's swimming tomorrow!

du zi tong ):

i'm going to eat finish --> lose weight --> bathe --> salvage homework ;D

사랑해

Samuel

Three-hundred-ninth Post: 생일 축하합니다

2010-05-12T00:00:00.007+08:00

Happie birthday to you
happie birthday to you
happie birthday to stevennnn
happie birthday to youuuuuuuuuuuuu

祝你生日快乐
祝你生日快乐
祝你生日快乐~
祝你生日快乐~

생일 축하합니다
생일 축하합니다
사랑하는 스팁엔 씨
생일 축하합니다~

selamat hari jadi ;D
Herzlichen Glückwunsch zum Geburtstag ;D
_{お誕生日おめでとうございます xP copie and paste de. LOL}

life isnt going too well for me, failing my tests );
but i hope you are doing well ;D < DDD~

i hope you are happppieeeeeeeeeeeeee

i hope you enjoy the songgg............
write me a letter, will you?
Samuel x)
happie birthday steph too xP

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

and God bless uncle yan

Three-hundred-eighth Post

2010-05-09T04:54:00.006+08:00

hihi @@ i feel so tired
no strength at all ):

was playing the frozen throne :@ stupid allies. noob si ren
@@

lumi, ps and tanying came over to my house yesterday :B
ps and lumi asked me about chemistrie...... ;D
while tanying asked me about physics :B i totallie rock

they played audi too :@ never concentrate
and tomorrow is their mid-year exam o_o
we left at around 7+...... ps bought me hiphop jellie :B totallie yum
i stuffed the icecream into peisheng's mouth LOL :B sorrreh

first, we sent tanying and peisheng off :B
then i sent lumi off
then i walked to hougang mrt station
to take a train to dhobie ghaut
to meet my dear pim and jasssssssss

:B so happie just came out of the NEW RESTROOM AT DHOBY GHAUT MRT STATION OMG SO BLACK AND SHINIE AND AMBIENT AND NICE AND < DDD and saw them =x

i got myself a milk tea...... or pearl milk tea. aka the original, "plain" version o_o
went to jcube to playO: saw daniuuuuuuu
played audi for an hour :B thanks jas :B
saw forgot-his-name :B aka jialat :B
lalala......

daniu talked to me awhile ^^
wish we could talk more :\

went near starbucks and saw some angmoh cashier who pim and jas said were shuai LOL :B
and then i tried the htc phone which was on display...... same model as lumi's handphone :@
we went back to jcube :B and i used prepaid coms which still had value......
we left 40mins later O:

forgot-his-name and pim went off first
while i dashed to the OMG CLEAN AND AMBIENT RESTROOM < DDD
then jassss, her korkor and i went to take the north-east line

jas alighted at kovan
i alighted at hougang
and jas' korkor dunnoe ended up where LOL :B

he said i must treasure school O: coz when i'm in the armie, i'm gonna miss school
;___;

walked towards home
stopped at the park in front O:
there were a group of bois
o_o
so i sat down at the exercise swing thing o_o like pendulum de
sms-ed pirates and listened to my Favourited songs tuellie there's no such word :B
so from 11pm++++++ to 1am, i was sitting there
:\

thought of people who arbish-ed my heart
crawled homeeeeeeeeeeeeeee so hungrie ;___;
NO FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD
at least no UN-REFRIGERATED FOOD

so i played the frozen throne and lost :@ stupid allies

sobsob ;___;

Samuel

Three-hundred-seventh Post

2010-05-06T01:04:00.002+08:00

harlow......

feeling like ____ these few days :\
feeling verie stressed.

feelings of loss academic-wise

)';

Samuel

Three-hundred-sixth Post

2010-04-28T20:40:00.003+08:00

harlow~ ;D

today, i went for cca. i played c.chess against dannie and
ALMOST LOSTTTTT :D

today, i completed a chinese composition within 1 hour 30 mins. RECORDDD ;D

today, i almost overslept on 156

today, i saw the moon big and round and red o_O

today, my father cooked SPAGHETTI ;D yumyum
now, i'm feeling so full ):

i'm so tired~ x)
and today, i took a non-aircon 74 to school ;D
Samuel and today, i was sleeping during chemistrie lecture );

Three-hundred-fifth Post

2010-04-28T00:44:00.002+08:00

hihi ;D

i'm under the alcoholic placebo effect
"sparkling apple juice" tastes damn sour :s like cider though i dont know how cider tastes like
later got physics test............ hehehehehehehehe

tireddddd :s
feeling verie crankie everyday :s
and there are rashes on my back D:

and the hamster cages totallie stank of mating scent :s

been prettie quiet the previous day...... totallie introverted and _inaudible
amazing teachers to be able to bear with this

my upper bodie feels weak ): especiallie my shoulders and arms
trying to do push-ups but failing :s
:\

lalala~

Samuel

Three-hundred-fourth Post: WILD

2010-04-11T07:22:00.009+08:00

hiiii ;D

yesterday was isoouting! ;D
to WILD WILD WET :D

alex, pim, xinkai, xinken, nai and i went :D
LOLOL

@@

sooo....................

i woke up at like 10++ o_o
then audi a while......
then went off :X

met alex, nai and xinkai and xinken at macdonalds at white sands :@
i koped some fries and drank some green tea...... =x (hungrie @@)
then i decided to go e!hub first to replace my nebo card :@
so xinkai and xinken went with me~

on the way, there were these tourists, one mom and son o_o
they asked us how to get to E!HUB O_O so we led them......
from the plastic bag the boi held, i saw the words "에너지" which meant energie in korean :@ which means they were korean :@
when we were near the steps to "the alley", they stopped O: but i waved to them to follow us :D LOL
you know, there's this urge to speak korean to them :@ YOU KNOW? but you SHIE LOL

we walked further up and finallie reached e!hub < DDDD
we entered the lift =o and so did the mom and son
and they left on the 3rd floor =o
4층...... :x

went to nebo guy~ T.T then went to arcade =x
played basketball...... so tiring :@
LOLOL

then went to collect my card. then went to wild wild wet there to meet pim, alex and nai :@
apparantlie, they still had the offer of paying 25 dollars for a nebo membership and two complimentarie tickets to wildwildwet/escapethemepark :@
so nai, alex and xinken shared the cost of $32.50...... with xinken taking the membership

so, we all got our tickets and entered WILD WILD WET :DDDDDDDDD

use of lockers costed $2 o_o
so pim and nai went to change~ then we all chose two lockers
we put our stuff inside and went into the WATERRR :D at nearing 2pm

first, we went to ularhlarh which was totallie zzz
i had a cyst on my chest and alex said it was my 3rd nippo ): LOL
then we went to the the giant bucket TING TING TING LOL BUT NVR SPLASH UNTIL US

then we went to TSUNAMI LOL :D wore lifejacket~ :P
LOL
xinkai's fren was there o_o

afterwards, we went round and round shiok river~
..................................

THEN IT WAS THE BEST ATTRACTION OF WILD WILD WET

SLIDE-UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP :DDDDDDDDDDD
i paired up with xinken... LOL
it was his first time i think :@

u will reallie SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM when u go down LOLOLOL I WANT GO AGAIN x(

xinken and i went to ride the skyrider...... which is the cycling thing in the air LOL. we saw the rest of them :@ and waved~ LOL
at first we cycled fast fast then the guy whistled at us to slow down :@
coz the slide was so unattractive then,
there was no queue so we decided to ride again =x
so we exited the cycling thang and went to the first one straight away and cycled off again =x
and waved again~ LOL
at the slide-up there, we saw pim and alex slide down :@ SCREAMMMMMM
then we saw nai and xinkai go down...... pro sia, nvr make sound at all LOL
we walked down to the ground floor while the rest of them walked up LOL
so we passed them their specs which we took care of when they were playing slide-up

xin ken and i went to ride the purple slide O:
got this damn b-e-a-utiful woman LOL angmoh de, damn slim. looked at each other LOLOLOL
i finallie know how to slide that one lerhs. must lie back with ur hands stretched above your head xP
otherwise will stuck LOL LOLOL

then we went to run around the playground~ playing slides LOL

then we wanted to look for the rest of them O: so we went against the current in shiok river~ and we found them :D
we went round and round~ ;D so nice

they were all tired, so we played at the water playground ;D LOL got the lame slides. and the DAMN FUN CONTRAPTIONS which pour water over people LOL
i dunnoe pull some string then water splashed onto me :@

so fun spraying jets of water at people :P

spraying at seksie shuai ges too LOL

we went for more dingdingdings and pim and co. were tired O: so they knocked off first
while alex and i went to play slide-up :@
but we had to go one round of shiok river first :@ :@ :@

slide up ;D
got this seksie shuai ge in front of the line ;O he had reallie nice hair o_o with brown-ie colour
@@

LOL

alex forced me to carrie the slide-up float myself ):
so i did it... and FELL ON THE STEPS AND CUT MY KNEE
;___;
BLEEEEED SIA =x
then alex helped me drag the float up......

the way alex and i were sitting on the float...... DAMN FARNIE LARHS LOL
~~then alex had to do some action to move the float LOLOLOL XDDDDDD~~
then we went down............ wtf.
f-ing fun. LOL
MOST CIJI EVER today

then we passed the float to another pair of shuai ges < DD

alex went to knock off too but i went to ride something i havent ;o
which was the yellow slide.
weeeeeee~ blah LOL

so i went to knock off too =x it was around 6 alreadie
went to a cubicle with hot water...... song bo LOL
................................................................................................

went out =x
ate some cheese fries alex bought
and then we all went out of wild wild wet~
to the nearby food centre O_O just in front, actuallie
i got chicken rice set b...... LOL
nai and xinkai got western food O_O
alex had 板面 which steven liked to have with his bubble tea in manila ;D
pim had her usual korean food

HAHAHA

we all met up again, then walked towards e!hub
there were two giant THE FLINTSTONES MASCOTS LOL

went to e!hub arcade ;D
xinken played house of the dead 1 with me...... i totallie sarked can -__- LOL
i am peculiarlie vulgar when i play shooting games :$ especiallie regarding the undead

we all slacked around sommore~ alex played jubeat :@ she let me play BASIC LVL song :@ DESPISE ME TnT

soon, we all left~ walked back to pasir ris interchange there...... and i bade farewell to them O: since they were all taking the train or bus somewhere else

boarded 88...... it was a bus where the front window on the 2nd level had no spotted design ;o
so could see the front clearlie

almost overslept LOL go toa payoh ar~

crawled home TnT and then switched the computer on
too bad noone was online O:
maybe they hadn't reached home yet

i went to bed......

what a day it has been. xD
which makes me wonder, just how manie hwachong people experience this?
Samuel think a few. x)

Three-hundred-third Post

2010-04-04T20:31:00.001+08:00

sob sob i feel so sad ;___;

i want to sleep and dream more ;___; becoz in dreams, it's all so ideal and nice ;__;

hai

Samuel

Three-hundred-second Post: Gott ist großartig

2010-04-03T06:58:00.004+08:00

i'm home~ after being outside for almost 3 hours o_o

after watching bruce almightie yesterday, i realised that there should be more to a prayer

it's more than what you would like.
it's truelie wanting what you would like. makes sense? LOL xD

i know i've been wanting him...... i've been wanting people, actuallie
i guess i should pray for what i reallie want of him
i want him to be happie.
i want him to feel good about being with me.
i wish he would not do things to sell himself away. i wish he hasn't since that day.
i wish that no danger befalls him.
wish that he would be loved by someone. and he would love that someone too :\ truelie

my bodie is full of cysts ..................................
wish i wouldn't have them
ouch ;__;
pain pain pain!

i went to the playground near 537
i trie so hard......
but i don't get to do anything with you.
nevermind lah :\
i went to swing at punggol park
~

and i went to the place at buangkok ;D
Samuel